i miss the holidays.

i miss sleeping at the oddest hours

i miss my nails

i miss my friends,all fucking all all all of them

i miss PL(i know i cant believe i just said it)

i miss having a stomach that doesnt screw you up when and wherever

i miss the feeling of midnight wind brushing against the tip of yr skin and it tingles

i miss listening to the bands play+drinkss+the company of friends+cameras(hahaha)

i miss knowing

i miss having something real

so yes,gonna head out soon,after 2 days of being stuck in school uniform,caged in a building till 3+,having a lililil bit of games,attending talks more talks and more more talks

i hate school and so should you hah

alright,bye bye bye bye you

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forgetting

ystd was spent either in bed/puking my guts out in th toilet.

finally headed to a medical centre around 2am+?

i swear the car ride there was horrible.was bloody weak and i needed my bro+mum to support me all the way.talk about drama.

we went to 2 clinics.

got really pissed off at the 1st clinic

my face was getting paler by th minute and all th lady cared about was talking cock

ended up driving to thomson.

my stomach's crazy now,its churning,i think i am down with gastric flu

and thank gosh i finally shitted.

i know it sounds disgusting,butttt,imma happy girl.i finallllllly shitted hehehehe.

kay enough.

on a side note,i do not know what i am doing.

do you have any idea? lol really.

hmmm alright,ipod's done syncing,

gonna go to the balcony and sit.it does wonders sometimes.

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far

as usual,its going to 4+am and i am not even close to yawning
spent ystd day and night out>aftrnoon with fatty>night ate pizza, drank drank yummy bitter sweet sour>caught a midnight movie on angels cursing crawling on walls and chewing off ppl's necks>headed back>slept>ate>slept somemore.
and today we had dinner at the Fong's.

currently,there's a strong gust of wind and my hair's still damp,i am all sprawled out on my chair.it's times like this when you just like to think and think and think
i think too much.
i realised that i overanalyse overthink overfeel
get what i mean?maybe thats why literature class was th only class i hardly ever doze off in,apart from the few few times i ended up on my lego bag/when i was drooling(do not laugh).or maybe it was th jumping jacks th teacher forced us to do everytime somebody looked sleepy.

i do not feel sleepy,but tired.does that make sense?
i wonder,how does it feel to be you
really got to start listening.

mm alright,i have this strong suspicion that the father's gonna wake up any minute,stomp downstairs and once again i am in for one hell of a ride.so i think it's safer to camp upstairs ha ha so yesss goodnight or goodmorning stay happy all bai

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pictures taken from jewel's nikon :)

went to the barker boys chalet,was good

so yeah,halfway through we were hungry and ended up walking to changi village,

saw trannys.which were disgusting i swear they werent wearing bras and according to a few they were eyeing martin hahaha

plus,ystd was me seeing M jump from all the roaches which was rather amusing lol

he was a red lobster,crazzzzy.

so yeap hardly slept a wink and by the time i got back i overslept and woke up to my dental's angry call

yes i missed dental again,well done the way i am going,i am never gonna take off my braces man :(

that was how i spent my monday+abit of my tuesday,rest of tuesday was spent in bed while pangsei-ing pea toh who was working her butt off in guzheng just to get us both th letter.hehe thanks love :)

weeell school's starting soon,parents are starting the same ol' talk sigh am not ready no no no i aint

just thinking about having to get my butt up and out of the house at that unearthly hour makes me feel like.. zzZZzzzZZZ( haha chng!)

am trying not to think about it for now.am looking forward to tmr,

need.to.get.out whooopwhoop

its 2:30am,i am currently staring at th computer screen,th music's blasting,and i am wondering.

well looks like i am not gonna be sleeping anytime soon,

this holiday has been making me feel like an owl i am turning nocturnal alr,this sucks

k dad's awake and he's not happy bye

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tell me,did you fall for a shooting star

burnburnburn

maybe cos its 3am but i am having a craving that i swear is gonna make me go so broke.i must admit that the reason behind this is rather immature and foolish.i am trying to contain myself.i am trying to reason with myself and.currently,i am fighting a losing battle with myself ha ha ha mannn i dont think i even sound coherent.

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results werent good,but at least i ought to thank God that i passed hcl
CfuckinFIVE hahaha i proved to my teacher that even though we sleep in almost every single hcl class of hers we can still pass hehehe take that asswipe.
other than that,getting back results was horrible.
father was sighing the whole time,it wasnt up to his expectations
people asked,aunties called when i was sleeping(phew)
am kinda disappointed with myself,but ohwell i am just hoping i can make it to where i wanna go.
anyway,thank you friendszxs for the hugs the comforting and stuff.i dont know what PL would be w/o you guys <3


well on a side note,had the company of hanya and cassthehole today.
day consisted of both of them throwing me fingers+''ball-less fuck and the __ tell you to eff off' line'' sorry too crude but hahaha th only thing that kept me laughing throughout th whole ride on th mrt.luv my friends lol
i guess we need to wake up.


so yep,that was my day,how was your's?


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breathe

->few days back,was good was good.swirl swirl float float hahaha oh yes and the burning throat drink was th power.

summary:

food,drinks,more of the second,macs at 1-2am,S's house,scary dog(LOL jk),bimb's board game at 3am which failed for me,slept for 2hrs+ and rushed home to prepare to meet fatty in th morning.pounding head,i died on the bus

anywayy,tomorrow's the day.i dont know what to feel.

damn,no i will not shit in my pants hahaha

funny,but it feels like psle all over again.the family,the phone calls,nope not good.

alright,its getting late,my hair is wet,i am missing,dad's annoyed once again,and oh yess,th brother is coming back from HK hehehe i am gonna wait up!

we have decided to meet up early tmr before the shit begins,one last breath of shopping LOL

and no i dont want to remove my nail polish

am humming to myself you can do it you can do it shut up you can do it
so yes,goodluck friendzzz sleep early(bull i know lol) and sweet dreams

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break

credits:tumbr

mmmmmmmmmmmmmmm

its late,i think i am turning nocturnal

and i feel like drowning whatever feelings i am feeling in starbucks frappe,mango margaritas,mixxymixxy yumyum

just realised a day ago,results will be out this coming monday

i am planning to lock myself home or maybe fly off to bkk if it turns out bad

anyone wants to fly with me? i wish you did hahaha slap myself la

anyway,just yesterday me,hanya,cassholeflatface headed to pene's place around 12am to give her a surprise.

luvvvv th cake we did for her HAHA good stuff,shall post a picture when the com decides not to be so bitchy

it went well,yay hope you liked it pwene.happy seventeenth <3

so yes,i am trying,and its affecting me more than i thought it would but too bad for me i was stupid

need distraction n o w w w w

okay,looking forward to tmr night

so sleep tight everybody dont let the bed bugs bite

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so,what do you do

its 9:21am,just got back and am currently on my bed dying
yet yes,i have no idea what i am doing here.
okay,maybe i do know why,but i am still living in self denial,i know i suck yes.
anyway,yesterday+tday=gossip girl
consisted of me shedding tears for chuck bass(dont laugh) ,staring,thinking,screaming around 4+am in bimb's house cos chuck finally said an ' i love you' to blair,and concurrently waking bimb's mum due to my screams,not to mention i replayed it twice hahaha erm and let's see
waking up today morning knowing how she felt,not to mention,stepping in a messy goo of squashed up snail did not helped either.

so yes,other than that,i feel.
bad.really,really bad
grouchy too.

i think maybe i should start to hide in my hole.
i really dont know what's worse
mhmm,alright,angsty angsty aint good.not to mention th lack of sleeeeep.guess i am going to dreamland right now goodmorning,goodnight you.


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