you're beautiful.

gotta start studying,and start passing the subjects eunice.

its pressurising and i hate the education system.i hate not knowing and understanding anything.we all want to feel good about ourselves in all aspects,dont we?

i want to leave S'pore,so so so so badly.maybe i should try and persuade my parents.i am so jealous of R and J and the many others who will be studying overseas. i will miss them like darn.

oh yes,maybe i should go on hiatus from the cyber world too,like the many others.

need to buck up.

hopefully when i get back,my mind will be clearer,and things would turn out better,for a change.

lets hope so huh.goodbye for now dear readers.

let's see how long i can survive without the computer and maybe,just maybe,my handphone too.

haaah fat hope eunice.

i know i suck.

x

this is gonna be long,

thank you dear bitches.

the box i carried around.i am feeling happy so heck the unglams.

just got to rmb.STOP POUTING.i look like an asshole.

you play with fire too?

thank you all for the birthday wishes,on facebook and in school and textmessages,calls,

the gifts and so on.

thank you to my dear assholes for the bday present that boy,is gonna make me fat.(you know who you guys are) oh and the steam cake!

thank you (in no order, koo deb pea lum)

thank you to whoever else who wished me

i love you all.

i nearly forgot my bday.when the class suddenly burst out of nowhere singing happy birthday,

screaming,i nearly wanted to join in the fun,and i was thinking who's birthday was it -..-

hmm so i am 16.

no need to try and sneak into cinemas for nc16 movies anymore haah there goes the thrilll.

oh not to mention,my birthday is real jinxed

R i miss you as my partner get well soon :( remember,carebear!

so happy birthday hitler,

my condolenses to the nicholl highway collasping and the many who suffered on this day,

and happy birthday me.

well so that was on the 20th.

today,was SYF.

atmosphere was super tense.

expectations were to be met,and we all didnt want break the chain of Gold with Honours.

nearly freaked out,we realised that we passed the time limit cos we could get disqualified or some shit.

but in the end,it all worked out.

everybody were holding each others hands,and when they announced our results,

you would see a whole bunch of girls screaming llike assholes and punching the air,singing our good ol victory song.

i swear,its a relief.

xinmin got GWH too!

yay go BBBB i love you :D

sorry for smacking your ass \^^/

we were like cheering for xinmin nyjc northbrook and bartley.

god,they have all improved awesome :)

so anyway,

everything worked out.

my last competition,after so many months of horrible practices,we got what we want.

we were damn happy.went crazy all the way back to school.

i still am smiling :)

go PL GUZHENG TUAN hehe though i hardly ever ever say this about guzheng,

swear its once in a lifetime.

so i can finally concentrate on my midyears, and my final grading for dance in NAFA.

load of shit off my back and i am glad all the hard work paid off.

i must admit,not all shit is cleared,but i guess we all got to start trying to love life,no matter how shittified it may be.

xxxx

picking up

so i was looking through the old school magazine,and guess what i found :)

ASH AND GOH
MEL AND LUM

rach goh you were so cute,i miss you :(


and this totally shows how long i have been stuck to this damn instrument.
lol sad life.


did not have a good day.okay infact,i didnt have a single good day this week.

had a sudden spotcheck yadayada.conclusion: i went for a shopping spree in at the prefect booth.
cant be bothered to elaborate.like bimb said,we ought to make them a lil happier once in awhile :)

as for today,dear ball called me out infront of the whole class and picked at me from head to toe.
ears,uniform,socks shoe.
my hair was awesome hehehe so proud of myself so i shall claim the credit ^^
she was even telling everybody the colour of my shoe. ''not white,but greyyy.'' (its that a school rule too?)
best thing,was that,it ended off at a ''its not a personal thing''
mhmm.maybe i am getting abit to touchy over her calling me out.but i mean if you were me how would you feel.
riceball at you.
pea tells me its my face.maybe i should just go for plastic surgery or smtg huh.


yes,so besides that,i overall spent the day getting wrong answers to every single maths question i did.sang ''hey jude'' and changed the lyrics cos i was feeling rather sad and pissed off at myself.
it sucks,when you are always not getting things right in life.
never went well for me.how bout you?

i dont know what i can do anymore to salvage plenty of issues,but i guess for my academics,its gonna be nescafe and the books.

i will try my best.


x

what they see,

look at my bangs and yirou hahahahaha.

chnggg get well soon you crippled :>

i spent sunday walking from clarke quay to marina,cityhall area with stephanie,

running across roads with an umbrella.

we followed the sound of music,oh yeah not to forget the man with the eastpak bag.

didnt manage to find the wanted destination,lol and in the end,landed up spending 18 bucks on tomyam noodles and some drink.

the drizzling rain was a bitch swear.kept poking her with my umbrella -.-

hmm so yes,

cant really remember much.

except that today we had 2.4 run in the morning and i spent the whole day after that,walking and looking like a crippled zombie.

my hips hurt so darn bad dont ask me why lol.

oh oh and and,

HAPPY SWEET SIXTEEN BRENDA

known you in primary school

i still remember the valentine day's card you gave me which got confiscated by some ball,so random i know.lol.

straighforward,but you know i am working on it yesss :)

anyway,i owe you a present.

i forgive you for all the fingers you have pointed to me,and for calling me names -.-

though we may not be the closest closest,but you know that i love you.

may you have an awesome day.

xx

alright.i gotta rush out of the house now.

late late late.

shall upload something i found the next time round.

boy ol boy,wonder what happened to me along the way.hahh.

x

what makes you,you.

okay okay shit i gotta make a quick post.

• observed how pickpockets try to steal old peoples stuff on the bus at night around geylang area. god,we were so agitated so we made all those stifling wtf noises till one realised.and the best thing was that the other guy,was using a knife to cut a hole in the back pocket and front pocket of an old man,and yet the old man didnt know.wtf.thank goodness both of them were lousy and couldnt get anything.seriously it left us gaping and paranoid.
• had a war on at night.
• hmm went to the flea today,bumped into many familiar faces.shopped around,got caught in the rain.thank you herman for sheltering us :) then my scandals broke on the way home,so i took of them off,and walked out of the mrt lift,barefooted,and continued walking all the way home,in the rain.and i dont know why but my feet felt good actually.in the grass,mud and water.
• caught up with old time friends at night,had dinner and i am home.

so yes,thats all for now.i've got mountains of things to do and handle.

dad's an ass so yes.goodnight.

x

gonna throw it away.

• aunty turned up at my house carpark one night and shocked me.it was hilarious,especially with me in my room screaming down at the carpark cos my phone suddenly conked out on me.it was like hide and seek.


• koo found something really interesting in the school's library and showed it to me.so,there were like two mad girls at the back of the library screaming away giggling profusely.camera snapping away man LOL.


• okay but after what just happened,i dont find point two amusing anymore.and sorry if this is gonna sound crude and brash.

i hate people who lie.thats for starters.

then next,i hate assholes like you. _/_

why say such things that you never ever meant.why waste your breath?i wondered if you ever truly searched deep deep down into your own heart and search your conscience.maybe we are just artifacts of your life.to remove when unwanted.yes?

i thought i was angry.but no,come to think of it.

its more of a disappointment rather than fury.i thought i was gonna burst but nah i guess i will survive.from now onwards,i will change my perception that all people can change,and maybe see th end results before ever concluding.

well at least there was a smart decision made before it.i shall keep reminding that to myself.

and dear you,if you ever see this,maybe it would spark off a little something in yourself.

stay.fucking.far.away.from.me. (dont get the wrong impression okay this isnt directed to any close friend or whoever,i love you all.)

so yes,now B's trying to persuade me to attend some party but no no no.

cannot :(

alright goodnight all.

x

touch.

so i think we all should start being thankful.

ha ha ha so ironic

had family renuion dinner

an aunty gave me a million dollar handshake,and another gave me a coach product.

my jaw dropped,like seriously,the minute i saw the dustbag that imprinted those words on it.

goshh.the dustbag is actually nicer than the wrislet ha shit i sound so spoilt,but its okay i like both :D

i realised i wont be having a life in the near future till i start passing subjects and jumping from C,D,Es to As and more As.

sigh i am caged up already,so sad.

anyway,got wet today,tied garbage bags to h and a's feet and ran to the bus stop so amusing i tell you :)

mhmm so school's starting tomorrow,havent completed anything.

i am way too tired and seriously,i feel rather screwed in every way one can be now.

no.not because of that or that.enough of it.

i need therapy.now.okay gonna go find it heh ^^

gudbai.

x

why.

caught this earlier in the week.

bimbotic show yes but its kinda cute and romantic at the same time,so three thumbs up :)

was goo goo gah-ing over hugh dancy.

caught it with p.

''i thought she was your girlfriend''

''no she isnt you''

\^^/

hmm anyway this week ended horridly.

got really angry in the day due to some ball that is cock in the eye.

biased and judgemental.a pain in the ass.not mine,everybody's.

why cant you just leave me alone.i stay away from you and you stay away from me likewise.i really cant wait for graduation.so gonna throw riceballs at you the minute i step out of the school gates. >:(

besides that,

• some building around bugis caught fire and it was near NAFA so after dance witnessed some bits and pieces.
• i got a darn zit on my cheek.and it looks like a mosquito bite.

yes so anyway tomorrow's gonna be draining but i am looking forward to frolick :>

dad's pissing so i guess thats goodnight all sweet dreams sleep tight.

x