for me.

its 1/1/09

feels wierd

at service,and when it we were all doing the countdown thing together,
and when we said 5 4 3 2 1,
the ''1'' was especially hard to say.
cos within that one second,
everything was going to change.
well i am sec 4 now.
how funny.

anyway will upload the pics when seah yirou sends them.
spent the whole afternoon clearing up that battlefield of a room.
still am infact.but taking a break.the dust and all is killing me.

and plus.
i realised i still dont have a school bag,a proper school uniform,oh yes.
and a pencil box.
school's tmr.
say bye to manicure nails and gone with the coloured hair.
:(

anyway.
tmr shant be bringing anything to school at all.
afterall,i dont have a proper bag.
and i have no homework that i can pass up.
cos its either undone,or,its under the 'i have still got no idea what homework i am supposed to do'' category.
so yes.

first day of school.then theres guzheng and after that got to rush to bugis and it will be home around 10 plus in the night.
sigh.
dance-will-kill-me.
i bet she's gonna test our flexibility shit and i havent practiced in ages and and she's gonna use her damn leg to step on me cos i cant go down shit shit,

sigh.
here's 2009 for you.

off to pack my room.
baibai :(

hownowbrowncow

okay a quick quick post.
woke up late and rushed to tuition.
was late and wasted 7bucks on cabbing.
then it was down to serangoon to meet seah yirou.
went to cut hair.
saw a familiar face,yeah.
hmm.sent my uniform for alteration.
gonna be stuck with some shitty potato sack till monday :(
really hoping the uncle will be able to do the uniform the way i wanted him to.
next stop was macs.
chatted,crapped,laughed.
haha and am back home for a short while and i am off to meet her for dinner then watch night service,countdown,supper?
wont be back in time to post a properr post so here ye here ye i am here now
:)

hmm.
this year has been a hell of a roller coaster ride i must say.
not much of a good side though.
academic results dropped like crazy,failed like crazy.D,E,F, i've got all.
was struggling with my faith,
was struggling with my own heart.
but.

i must must say here,right now.that i am thankful for my friends.
wish i could type all your names out here but there are so many that i am afraid i would accidentaly leave out one name and i swear,that would make me feel bad cos i love all you guys.
thanks for being there through it all.
this year,has truly taught me the importance of friends.

and i hope through this year,i will turn wiser!
:D
heh at least yeah.
i want to learn from my mistakes.

yes,
and i am guess.
this is the closure of 2008.
it was a hell of a ride.it still is.
but yes.
i know i have my friends behind me.oh oh and yesss.not to mention,the guy up there :)

next year,i am pretty sure it wont get better.
i will be sec4.
i am gonna get back my higher chinese o'lvl results.
gonna have the actual olvl.
its gonna be stress stress and more stress.
not to mention there will def be more problems coming my way.
but,i am sure it will turn out fine.

i've decided to go to school with a positve outlook.
and if i get the lard as my form teacher again,woohoo look out man.
gonna enjoy my last year with her heh ;)
and though i have not touched my homework,
its okay!
i dont care.
i just want to finish sec4.
i shant make empty promises.
so i shall just say,i want to buck up.

i am gonna prove to my parents that i can play and study at the same time.
AND I WONT WONT SLEEEP IN EMATH.
I AM GONNA GET TUITION AND PASS IT I TELL YOU.
SEE DAD.
I DONT WANT TO HEAR A WORD ABOUT EMATH.
really really hope i will land up in the same emath class as sarah puiiii.
she's my pillow in class.she's my alarm clock too haha.wakes me up.
i miss her tons :(
pui pui watch out in school i tell you i am gonna pounce on you when i see you i miss you ^^

so yes.
i guess its gonna be goodbye 2008.

hello 2009 tmr.



x

we say goodbye.

guzheng was kinda cool at the end.
watch videos of the past.
2007.
saw the hilarious faces of pea,xw,dora and i performing,onscreen.
reminded me alot of the past.
saw the familiar faces of seniors yeokling,charissa,JANE SNG omg omg i miss her >:(
hello jane i doubt you will ever read this but i seriously miss you and your amusing actions and everything we used to do together.MAGGI MEE RMB!
:/
sigh and guess what,
we used to be juniors.
and next year,we are gonna be the seniors.
actually we already are.
sucks huh.

sigh yeah.
after that rushed off for G's party.
haha really funny
there was hardly enough food,we had no idea who was gonna turn up,
but there was plenty of dunking,laughter,and not to mention,42 dollars worth of cake on everybody's faces.
except for me and a few others.
:)
haha yes.
and i am feeling satisfied with the catching up sessions with delaneeee and pea.
not really catching up.
but just seeing their faces and talking nonsense and hanging out with them.
like when we were in school :)

rushed home due to the worrying parents who were scared i would collaspe or my stomach wld attack me.
ate macs with mama.
walked home.

anyway.was feeling kinda disturbed and mixed.
but now,yeah sort of sorted things out in my head.
i can do it.
yes i can and i will :)
no more bull.and no more lies.


alright sorry for the short post.
gonna sleeeeeep.


goodnight to you all out there.
tmr is gonna be realllll busy sigh.
update will be late
ohwell.
goodnight.


x

wont be seeing

i feeeeel better.
but parents are still controlling wherever i go incase my virus acts up again
:(
theres like guzheng and a party tmr.
party's gonna last the whole night.
want to miss guzheng,and i have a feeling parents/stomach wont let me go for the party.
nvm i will find a way later.

on a side note,
saw stuff.
i am feeling rather mixed now.
am not sure whether to be happy,angry,cheated,disturbed,disappointed or tired.
maybe i should just take a nap.
sleep it off.
yes.
sleep you off
>:)

alright.
oh oh and dearest is coming back today!
yayayayayaayyyyy :D
CHNG CALL ME ONCE THE PLANE TOUCHES DOWN
I DONT CARE.
havent heard from you in ages lah wahlao.
>:(


haha okay.
goodbye all you lovers.


x



liar,liar,
i hope your pants will go up on fire
:)

disgusted.

no church for me today.
mum may be bringing me out later.
and i may need the doc again.

ytd night was horrible.
woke up at 3am.
cos my head was kiiiillliing the daylights out of me.
and the funny thing was that the minute i sat up,the pain was gone,
and when i lay down again,it came back.
so i couldnt sleep at all.
spent two hours getting up(cos my head hurt too much),then lying down(cos i was really tired sitting up)
at 5am,i got rather frustrated and went over to parents room.
was persuaded to eat panadol.
and back to sleep i went.
or more like lying down for the night.
:(

sigh.
i h8888 getting sick.
^%&^(*&)(
now i doubt i can even do my hw in time.
everything's untouched.

-lit (i still have no idea whats the hw,heard that it was 2 essays and a book?)
-emaths (3 stacks of ws,not sure)
-amath (no idea what,but not planning to do)
-bio (no idea too so doubt i am gonna do)
-chem ( 2 ws)
-geog ( no idea if theres even hw)
-hcl ( no idea again)
-eng ( 2 book reviews,2 newspaper articles,1 compre,1 compo)

is that all?
okay i have no idea -.-
have only completed 1 ws.out of my whole hw list :(
all i know,is that the term's gonna start ugly.
again.
sigh.
teachers,scoldings,naggings,boring lessons,sleep sleep yawn yawn.
z
sigh.
shant think so far now.

and on a side note,
i realised my eyes are getting rather suay this few days.
keep seeing things that z me.
or maybe its just me?
alright ms paranoia.
but i must say i am rather in awe now.
crazy you must be.
haha

okay all.
byebyebyebye.


x




whisper's hello i miss you quite terribly.
wakeup eunice seow.wake up.

thats the way.

was supposedly supposed to shop with mama today.
but my stomach decided to betray me.
and now i am stuck at home with a sick stomach.
way to go.
:(
and i doubt i have any energy left to head down to do my uniforms too darnn.
best of times to fall ill.
>:(
sigh and will be going out later in the night for brotherrr's bday thing.
some restaurant with spicy food. what a treat for my stomach huh :(


undone ( actually not even started) homework,
unbought school books,
unaltered school uniforms,
unbought stationary shoes school bag,
unready heart.

hello upcoming 2009.



x

edited/
cancelled dinner.
my stomach decided to flip.
and my head's now pounding,
haah.

i dont know dont know what to do its rather aimless around here dont you think and my heads killing me not to mention my stomach ahh feel like smacking something to release the tension in me zz help help ahh see eunice see lah play so much till you end up in this state serve you right blah.

theres a beetle next to me now-.-
darn.
and and i was just going through facebook.
saw tons of pics deb and david had put up of their trip there.
i miss the guys in philipines :(

okok shall stop here for today.i need the loo.

baibai goodnight.





lies and bull.

ahh shooo.

gonna stay home today.
my body is crazy i tell you.

i want the doctor.
and maybe a shot
:(

sigh just typed out this whole para of frustrations.
but deleted it all with a click.
ohwell.

happy boxing day.
and poor you,to those who are in cca now
:P



x

(M) you.

ytd's car ride was fun to the max.
it was around 11 and we were driving through orchard.
some group of burly guys were dressed in some spaghetti strapped top with tight fitting jeans ,colour wigs and sunglasses/
laughed like some mad woman in the car.
and and the best thing,was that,two of them came up to my car to wish me merry christmasss.
HAHA YOU SHOULD SEE ME MAN.
but darn.
regretted not waving back.
i was just too busy laughing -.-
yes and sat at macs ytd night.
nearly tonn the whole night.
haha at this point of time,i must admit,my parents are prettyyyy cool.
HAHA.I CANT BELIEVE I JUST SAID THAT.
but yes,
maybe they are getting used to the fact hehe ^^


fever is killing me.
i cant even type properly.
sigh anyway churched,gave gifts recieved some too.
thank you guys luv luv you all from the bottom of my heart.
ate at cafe cartel,and homed.
overslept.
pene called at 5.37
and we were supposed to meet at 5.30.
funny thing was that both me and hanya overslept.
so rushed down to clark quey.
ate dinner at minds cafe.
played games that ended up in either loud screeches,violent attacks,or spilling of drinks all over the floor.
but nothing was compared to the table next to us.
got pretty pissed at some girl who thought that her grandmother owned the shop.
one minute we thought she was gonna burst my eardrums,the next minute i thought she was gonna break the table.
but yes.there were loud shushes,''keep quiet lah!",curses,all directed at her.
lol.
yes and my fever and gastric got worse along the way.
so half the time i was just dying in the background.
till i buay tahn and had to make my way home.
ohwell.
but i did have fun today.

tmr is gonna be doctor all the way mannn.

alright thats all for tonight.
i seriously think i am gonna die.
fever has been going on for 4 days.kill me now.
:(

sigh okie dokey.
merry chistmas to everybody out there.
i am heading to my dreams.

xo



i cant believe myself.

merry christmas to you

IKEA

look at cass-.-

I MISS CAMP.(hanya,me,izabel)

okay got to make a fast chop chop post then i am out.

its 10pm and my parents are nuts.

they want to go get coffee.

haha but i aint complaining :)

went out with grace chan,and hanya seah today.

fat girl was l88888.haha but nvm,sat on mrt floor and chatted with grace lover :)

shopped

but i didnt buy anything cos i was in a picky mood.

like duh.

i had to block the doorway and prevent my mother from stepping out till she would agree to give me money cos i was so broke.

it was quite a scene.

haha hardearned money ok.

:)

yep then left them and headed to orchard to find mama.

bought sushi,sushi and more sushi :D

and now i am so tired i think i am gonna fall asleep any minute.

this christmas is gonna be a memorable one.

an aching back,along with fever and a killing gastric.

but its okay,i am gonna push myself till tmr.

and on friday,i will just KO and miss guzheng at the same time with an MC in my hand

:D

mum is like trying to scare me.

telling me about having to go to hospitals and all cos of prolonged fever.

which i have a history of.

nahh but my fever can wait.

after christmas

:D

okok goodbye you all.

may you guys have a merry merry christmas with your friends and loved ones.

x

ni ni ni

hi i h888 my cca and i find it rather amusing as to why after so much shit i go through,i am still there.

woke up late cos i felt like puking the minute i got up.

head was heavy and was feeling slightly feverish.

but still,i decided not to pon.

minute i reached there,heard him screaming at the rest.

sigh and when i finally climbed the four stories,

he made everybody stand in one role.

facing the sun,we were made to stand and pull our ears.

the funny thing is that i did not even do anything wrong but was punished along with them.

we stood there,not allowed to move or put down our hands,facing the hot glaring sun.

for nearly an hour to be exact.

the best thing was that my stomachache was coming again.

and i could not move.

*&)(*(*)(*&&^(*

the band girls and their instructer saw us.

and laughed.

you know what,i feel rather envious of them.

they always get free entertainment,thanks to us,their ''neighbours'' next door.

sigh cca ended late by 1hour and 15mins.

yes.and that concludes my lovely day.

i love my cca no?

alrightt.

off to rush my christmas cards and yada yada.

goodbye all.

xo

sorry.

all i want for christmas,

HAHAHHA.
look at my fats wth -.-
we make one cool gang right right!
;D

anyway just got back from ikea and giant with seah yirou.
and i am down with a horrible headache.
i bet it must be due to the reciepts,and how i am getting broker and broker by the mintue :(
yup bought my christmas gifts and candies.
oh yes and collected my VS bag.
there goes 55 bucks sigh.

cabbed back cos hanya was in a rush to go over to izabel's hse for baking.
and besides,i was so tired that i couldnt speak properly and i felt like i was about to just KO any minute :(
so yupp.

tuition later.
drats.i seriously doubt i can drag my butt all the way there.
i didnt even complete my homework from last time round.
sigh she's gonna come after me again.

ahh heckk.
alright people i am off to the bed.
my eyes are closing right as i am typing this out.

xo



yes,no,maybe?

why stare and not smile?

churched,
embarrassing!
was called up on stage to go play those games with marcus :(

i love my cluster,
thank God for them
:D
haha had fun at tessa's hse.
from eating to watching ppl playing halo to playing with bunny's younger brother who is btw freakingggg cute and kawaiii :}
he slapped me so many times okay :(
haha and oh yes lets not forget the christmas carols.
pictures will be up when i finally can get seah yirou to pass it to me!

and yes yes!
rachel koh said that if she ever had a kid,she wanted her to be like me!
minus the bad points heh.
yay i love rachel!
:D
and she wanted her son to be like mr flasher ballerina -.-


oh and i got a shock when dora msged me.
apparently she helped me take my certificate for my grade 8 guzheng exam.
so yeah she told me my grade
I GOT 85!
MERIT MERIT MERIT MERIT.
phew i thought i was going to flunk the whole thing cos i forgot to play a whole stanza.
:/
screeched,and found myself smiling like an idiot at my handphone screen for quite a while.
thank God.
at least i improved.
last year's results were horrendous.
:)

yupp.
so good night everyone.
gonna head for the shower now


x

green eye monster.

i am back after a really long day.

tuiton was horrible what can you expect.

the guy cant teach at all and it got me rather frustrated cos every minute i needed help with some question and i asked him,

he would just mumble a few equations which i obviously didnt understand and continued smsing on his phone.

drove me nuts.

rejoiced the minute lesson ended.

i am crossing my fingers i wont have to ever turn up again.

most prolly gonna quit hiphip hooray :D

haha yes and went to find hanya afterthat.

fareast.

overspent,gave in to the aunty at some shop who kept telling me that it was okay to look fat and cute.

sharon called halfway,and she thought she called the wrong person cos she said i sounded like samantha kang.

HAH goodness so now not only do we lookalike,but we sound alike too!

and and my gastric acted up again.

was killing me the whole time.

okay infact,its acting up again.

darnn.hurtzzzz >:{

sigh.

hmm headed home after blowing 100 minus 44 bucks.
and after embarrassing myself at 7-11 -.-

homed,

watched my brother and his gf get ready to go to some ''ball'' for officers.

i must say,his girlfriend is super kawaii

she has the cute innocent and blur gong gong look

:D

alright church tmr

and cluster thingy later in the day.

:)

kinda pity the person that gets my gift for the gift exchange :B

and i am like hearing some wierd noises coming from outside.

i think its the music my mum's listening to.

first its the book she wanted to write,and now its the music.

amusing.

ahh but i still love her to bits.

yes so goodnight all you people and have a great night.

x

.

spent the day without breakfast and lunch
guzheng is one way to lose weight hah.

met hanya,pene and cass for manicure after school :D
me and hanya did the same colour but she had a snowman drawn in.
while i,asked the lady to add in lines -.-
so i paid 5bucks extra for 4straight lines.
how smart.what was i thinking man.
ahh well then hanged around the mall.
ate,laughed,chitchatted.
headed home around 8.45 to prevent my mama from blowing up.

oh yes and i want to get the cass's topman shirt! different colour though :/
but,i am really broke right now.
i think i will have eat homemade sandwiches from next week onwards.
or starve till dinner.
:/

yupp,really tired out.
my body must hate me.

tmr is gonna be chem tuition in that freezing room with the teacher that has a beerbelly.

mum gave me a choice whether i wanted to attend it or not.
eventually decided that i needed to turn up after ponning so many lessons.
for the sake of my school's chem holiday homework

i seriously need to buck up.
undone holiday homework.
and the minute i attempt to do a worksheet,i realise,i dont even know how to do it.
so i get so irritated and disgusted by the work that i throw it to one side and run off to do something else
its a continous cycle.
:(

yes.
and i have to get presents,buy my school books,do my school uniform yada yada.

the holidays are coming to an end and i am so not ready for the new year.
oh well.

goodnight folks

x

4 in a role.

SHARON.thanks for walking home with me :)

moment of craziness.

E:lets go play go go

P:haha YEAH

run run,splash splash

''SHITT SHITT PANTS!''

class bbq,

mrs chong's children came along,and i made friends with her son.

was initially quite scared to even go ''disturb'' him,cos mrs chong already didnt have a good impression of me due to chemistry lessons -.-

but he smiled at me and my heart melted.

haha he wanted my name ok!

like he went up to his mum and asked for my name.

:D

yay yay.

his name's timothy,and debbie was like screeching for me to stop harrassing the poor kid.

aiya she's just jealous!

cos he's so cute and he talked to me :D

but then again.

i think its cos she's a psyco that doesnt like kids -.-

anyway fooled around with the cameras and yeah bimbo yew i want me pictures!

:}

hahah.

and oh yes we took the video of pea toh opening the BLG cd.

she went crazyyy and started screaming and jumping ._.

it was amazing.

pea toh's loudest ever screech.and if you know her well,you know how she can make your eardrums burst just by talking to you with her high pitched voice.

i was her partner in school btw.

heh.

unfortunately we didnt capture the best part where she was screeching so loud that we all went o.o and omgg and followed by that,cover our ears telling her to shut up.

cos my camera went crazy and there was a problem.

what a waste haha.

anyway yeah really tired out now so i aint gonna write much about what happened.

just look at the photos and try to figure it all out :)

yes yes and on a side note

SHERALYN CHNG LI LING (L)

I MISS YOU

hurry get your butt back :(

sigh call me as soon as your plane touch down ok :(

guzheng and out with the others tmr

pooped out,so goodbye and goodnight to all you people out there.

x

Everyday we wake up

We choose Love

We choose light

And we try, it's too easy just to fall apart

wont work.

joseph chan :D

MR FLASHER BALLERINA.and shh about the height.

we will make it one day.yes yes hanya? :)

joshuaaaa -lets do the gay sign-

hanya fatzz and grace lover.

see we love each other :D

okay more pics next time.

haven gotten everything completely

and theres a war on facebook now thanks to marcus ang who claimed me and hanya are short.

WHO ASK YOU LALALA

:)

its really amusing.

should go read it.

you watch out marcus ang.

hahaha.

okay.

off to my drama soapies.

goodnight everybody and sweet dreams,

x

decided.

amusing stuff.

morning.

sleepy tired sleepy tired.
my head's kinda fuzzy now.
hmm gonna spend the day at home today,shocked my mum.
''so guai?'' was what she said.
haha wth but yes.
really tired,my voice is half gone too.
it sounds very eh eh. -.-

ohwell,
waiting for brother to buy back my mac griddles :}
aint looking forward to later cos his girlfriend is coming over and i am gonna be a really bright lightbulb :(

and its tuition later in the night.
i am tired and i want malaysia :(

okayy gonna go search for new songs now.and prolly online therapy later!
christmas is coming up and i am broke to the core :(
sigh yay heres to more starving sessions.

oh oh yes and my dearest chng ahlian is going away today

to the country that is hell dangerous now.

haha love,dont die there okay

i will miss you,you know that.
remember my ah-ma stuff i dont want any bling blings 8D

haah.

alrighty shall end here,

salve(hello) and goodbyee

x

candies.

I AM BACK BACK BACK.
:D

hmm i am currently suffering from a sore foot,and a ''missing camp'' syndrome which happens every year.
:(
well wont be saying like what happens everyday and all the detail,only the impt ones,cos i am kinda lazy to type it all out.

group's name is SALVE :D
see spelt it correctly this time round heh.
hmm roomed with joann ong,hanya seah yirou,and izabel cheng :D
but we had this conjoined room with cleo,amanda poh,sam kang and grace chan!
really had fun with them.
:)

day1
headed to church early in the morning and bused to pahang.
immigration at malaysia was horrendous.
we queued for 45mins,and when we reached the front of the queue and it was about to be our turn,the guy working at the counter left w/o informing us.
we were all fuming and had to queue somewhere else only to find that the guy returned to the counter 30mins later.
_\_
z
goodness
and and! some Indian guy like ''touched'' my back
and it doesn't seem to be some accident cos after i turned to look at him and he in turn, gave me some creepyyyy smile :(

doubt its paranoia.
ugh and Amanda and Christie kept poking fun of me because of that :(
and reached Pahang after a crazy ride of about 5hours that was freaking bumpy,and at one point of time,we,those who were sitting right at the back,were nearly ''flinged'' into the sky,cos the bus jerked.
Heh so yes that's the main gist.

day2
lots and lots of workshops and worship.
couldn't play that many games due to the weather.
kept falling asleep in every workshop :x
and as for the game we played,
some guy ended up practically squatting on my foot,and i kept screeching for him to get up and he didn't.
so i got so pissed i pushed him off.
and he was like owwing away -.-
but,my feet by then was red and swollen ok.
z
and some guy flinged his slipper into my face.
z

HA HA BUT STILL STILL I HAD FUN.
merely just listing out my irritations.


the worship at night was good.
Samantha chai,Sam Kang,Rachel Koh,and even Joshua prayed for me.
i found answers to many things i have been asking the lord.
and all of them,in their prayers,would somehow hit spot on to all the things that i wanted to know in my heart.

day3
woke up early.

the sec 3 cluster gathered together to pray over smtg.
was really hard for me,but,i wanted to be there.
ended up getting red and puffy eyes which was super embarrassing :/
i really do hope,and i am sure, our prayers will get answered in time.

played games!
really had fun hahaha but cant be bothered to type out whatever we did.
but in the end,had dunking sessions,
and me and grace ran into the shower clothed.
so we were wet and happy :D

ministry night was awesome yes.
was with grace when we went up.
she prayed for me.
many things hit me.
and yeah i broke down.
but but, was okay.cos i felt happy suddenly.
we went around giving free hugs to everybody.
haha Marcus was lonely,so we gave him a hug.
and hanya and etc!
had gay talk with Joshua after that ;D
hmm and sister talk with Sam kang :}
yes yes and not to mention,grace is my lover from now on :D
hahaha yay PDAAA.

well and lots and lots of stuff happened later in the night.
to put an end to the day,
lets just say, thad,jon yuan,grace,amanda poh,graclynn came over and we played cards.
or at least they did.
till haha 4plus am?
:)
day 4
picture takingg,
had alot of fun at the beach,
haha yes and and i rmb,marcus is a flasher! HAHAHAHA.
EWW.joking joking.
:0
HOMEED AT 9 PLUS IN THE NIGHT.
too lazy to type.
just go read the others blogs!
;)

well.
to me,this camp was really different from the past two camps.
though there werent as many games due to the weather,(but the games played were good!)
i felt that this camp was more about worship and yeah.to grow closer to the lord.
i think that after this camp,i have learnt alot,and felt alot of different emotions i never really felt before.including having many breakdowns and looking like some goldfish :/

i just know that i want to have an authentic relationship with the guy up there in heaven :)
and yes.
no matter who i am, what i am,or what i do.
he is there and always there when i fall.

besides that,cell leader said this prayer for me that really made me wake up.
shant type out what she said here.
but i was really touched by whatever she said or did for me.
i love her hugs,and i love her.
though next year,my cell leader is gonna change again,
i love
rachel kohhh -inserts heart-
and i wont forget how much she has done for me
:D

hmm and through this camp,made new friends,strengthened friendships,and really brought me back to God after all the problems and everything.

okay okay i know i have been typing super cheesy stuff so shall stop here.

lets just say,the ''REAL''camp was a blast,and i loved it :]
pictures will be up when i have collected them from MEI MEI,HANYA FATT AND GRACE LOVER :)

goodnight lovelies
:)


x


i need to get it clear.

special.

tmr off at 7am

and its 11.40 now and i havent fully packed.

dont really feel like packing.its like the minute i reach my room,i lie on the bed and dont feel like moving at all.

so i guess i shall last minute throw a few tees and shorts in and i am ready to go :)

mum just told me i cant bring the camera thanks to my dearest brother

say bye to alot of pictures.

z

forget it.gonna bring my itouch,so i shall just hope for a lil internet over there ;}

my group's called 'salvale' okay i forgot how you spell it again

-.-

anyway amanda liew,christie are in my group,well thats the only few names i can remember for now.

alright time to go.

hehh miss me lovelies bai bai.

i shall see you all in 4 days.

goodbye singapore,hello malaysia pahang where i had megacamp earlier before and there were alot of disgusting huge insects.

hello church camp.

x

maybe

morning woke up at 9,then fell asleep again woke up at 10

was lateee

grouchy >8(

then headed over,

aunty!

hmm yes yes and we suceeded in uploading songs this time round

but we didnt have enought time to complete uploading everything :(

oh and the dad's cute haha learnt about the history of britain.

heard some british song.

both of them like to sing!

haha.

yupp and koo couldnt go out cos she was broke blahhh i still love you lah!

haha anyway went with hanya.

CAUGHT TWILIGHT!

EFFING AWESOMEE.i dont care wad my tll teacher is going to say to insult twilight or whatsoever anymore cos cos,though edward looks too white with all that heavy powder and thick lipstick and fake contacts,

he's quitee cute with bella.

super sweet boyfriend okay :}

lucky bella :D

me and hanya want to be vampires now haha and we want vampire boyfriends too!
except that the smelly fat ass wants her bf to be a swedish vampire.

she still obsessed over europee!

HAHA.

anyway most likely gonna re-read ''breaking dawn'' again.

cant w8 when it come out in the movies.

i will be first to go queue for the tickets cos i wanna see how hot and beautiful bella is gonna become when she turns into a vampire :B

anyway yupp so thats about all for today.

wont be posting till the 16th due to camp :(

miss me miss meee :D

haha anyway will be missing 12345678910 people :(

do take care of yourselves alright?

you know that i will be missing you,you,and youu.

hope,and crossing my fingers i wont come back with a burnt face or an uneven tan.

oh yes,and that my leg will survive camp too :(

dont know why,i suddenly dont feel like leaving for camp.

it feels different from the past two camps.

gonna leave behind my hp and itouch i guess.

its like saying byebye to your world for 4 days.

alright i have to pack my bag now.

no idea where to start.

sigh.

maybe posting later.

bai bai.

x

what to say,

there's too much.

tired.

UGLY BETTYZ. HAHAH laugh all you want!right right kooo haha _/_

more pics up next timeee :)

hello moto.

late morning with aunty p-i-g :)

tried to upload songs into my pod.

but we failed :( sigh irritating touch.

then headed to ps.

met seah yirou and off for shopping trip.

luv luv the souvenier she got for me 8)

yay haha love you xo

heard her stories on europe

re-did my coloured extensions heh :D

and we both got rather tempted to do smtg :(

you should see the faces of the girls who overheard the convo that we had with the shop owner.

haha urgh its cheap! but no cannot.

:(

walked around fareast.

saw a pair of heels which i likedd :B

but nahh cant i am broke already

maybe shall get it after camp :}

the worse thing was that,i had saved up to about a 100 bucks?

and now within 1 day,i am down to 50

&*(*&(^%%&

so yeah we ate the chicken noodles thing.

three thumbs up :D

and after awhile we got kinda tired so here i am now.

my leg is hurting again.

swear gonna be a crippled sooner or later.

and i need to pack for camp cos i will be busy tmr :(

heard twilight is already out from kooo!

I WANT TO WATCH BEFORE I LEAVEEE!

tmr tmr tmr plz!

oh yes and

saw some nice stuff online but i guess i will prolly have to tahan

and resist all temptations cos i am broke,and i will be off to camp soon so doubt i will have time to go get it.

:(

okk

feel super duper tired right now.

bed's calling for a nap.

sweet dreams all

x

liar on loose

went out with sheralyn and her sister.
fun fun fun
bought specs.
HAHA FUN TO PLAY WITH I TELL YOU.
look stupidxzxzx all the way!
:D
hmm bugis to get ___ present.
lucky ass right emily!
haha kill two birds with one stone can get present even
HAHA
sheralyn dont kill me.
;D

and some funny thing happened at the mrt cos people wanted to take photos with us.
._.
we were all :o huh?


&&
couldnt see aunty :(
had tuition later
ahh well.

oh yes and hanyaa calleddd!
the girl left/lostphone in europe.
and many other things too ._.
urgh anyway caught up on stuff,
and i miss her alot.
listened to wad she said,that made sense.
anwww
out out tmr :D

and lastly.
yes.
the minute i stepped into the car,
father started scolding me for no reason.
cos he had a very bad day at work i guess.
but.when i kept quiet cos i told myself to be understanding at tolerate it,
he scolded me.
then when i talked nicely,he scolded me again.
so i screamed.and he screamed back.
so you can imagine how the fight became.
he said some really nasty stuff,
and i couldnt stand it so i burst.

dammit.
i am not your punchingbag.

guess its going to be cold war for the next few days.
nvm,its better than getting scolded for no reason.
and anyway i will be off for camp soon,and followed by stayovers so yes.

sigh okay anyway pics will be up tmr
lazy now want to sleep :}
its 12.23am now
good night everybody out there
tmr's gonna be bzzz

bai
x

not wanting to.

the way gravity pushes on everyone,



went to the doc in the morning.
i paid 39 bucks for the doctor to remove the dead skin,using a sharp object looks like a penknife to me, on the sole of my feet.
worst part,is that it still hurts,i cant walk really properly and church camp is in 3 days time.
hello mud,dirt,running and sweating.
not that i mind,but my leg how :(
i definately do not want to hobble around malaysia
z

urgh.
and my itunes is kinda screwed.
ytd i had a shock when i pressed the wrong button.
cos all my brother's songs got downloaded into my ipod in like 5mins?
and for a minute i was staring at the screen wondering whether i should rejoice that i have music in my ipod or whether i should start deleting them cos i dont really like the songs.
._.
decided to keep the songs there and unplug the usb cable before i start doing real damage to the ipod or itunes.

funny thing,
was that when i started playing the music on the pod,it wouldnt play and i thought it was faulty.
but it turned out that my volume was zero.
i figured that out when i accidentally touched a part on the screen and music started blasting into my ears and i was screeching cos my eardrums were about to burst.
-.-

zomg i h8888 doing all this techy stuff.
>:(

sigh and i have decided to not touch it anymore before i do something worse,and just wait for help.
so now i have a useless itouch :/
w/o videos,pictures yadayada you name it.oh yes.and a bunch of songs with artists i never really knew existed.besides jaychou and all that -.-
haah.

oh well anw gonna head out later.
church,koo dearest,aunty dinner maybe?
tuition in the night :(

and oh yes.
seahyirou is coming back todayy
bitchhh msg me!
i want outings!
luv luv ^^

:D

alright.
update laterrr in the night.


x

PS.

talked to seah yirou ytd night!
was super shocked to see her online at 12.30am plus o.o
oh but they are 7hours behind,
rightt.
miss you fattyy,yes you are coming back tmr!
cant w8 :D
(L) mwahs!
hahaha see see i kiss you okay!

as for today.
hmm guzhenged,
then went to lavender to find mummy.
headed down to orchard.
wheelock for itouch!
my new babyyyy :D
the salesman kept smiling at me which was freakyy,but my dear mum later wiped that smile off his face cos she was bombarding him with all those kiasu questions.
haha
okay but i've got to figure out how to use the thing cos i suck at computer shit :(
seriously braindead dont believe ask my friends.
but but bimbo yew if you see this,
when your ass is back in singapore please help me hack pretty prettty pleaseeee!
:}

hmm then mum went home and i went to wisma gaigai.
lonely shopping in my school uniform.
would have been better without the uniform. :/
dhoby,bought my stuff and dinner.
and now homee.

my leg hurts now.
cos of the sore on the bottom of my foot.
and recently it got worse due to too much walking :(
so thanks to today's little outing,
my leg hurts like hellll now :(

mum's out.dad's not back yet.
and i heard wierd noises coming from the rooms upstairs.
like banging.
so i am gonna be a coward,chicken,and wait till pop's home before i go upstairs.
see this is the outcome of watching too many horror movies for november.
urgh.

alright.
off to go read the menu for the itouch.
hope i can even get through the first 5 pages.
h8 reading such stuff.
kills my braincells and spoils my eyesight with the microscopic words :(


see youu lovers!

x


it dont get no better,


edited/

someone just kill me now.
i know i sound damn whiny and like a wimp.
but the noises are still there upstairs and pa isnt home yet i want to go upstairs but at the same
time i dont dare too.
and and
i cant figure out how to download all the thingys for my touch :(
really irritated right now.
zzz
wish brother was here.
then i can dump my ipod in his hands and beg him to help me set it up.
buy him a meal maybe.
sigh but he's off.
so fat hope seow yi min.
nehmind!
i will figure out this shit by tonight!
by hook or by crook
>:(

sorry.

today is gonna be stay home day.
with the two parents and brother.
gonna get my poddy?
only thing i look forward to i guess.
and i guess its emath emath all the way.
its raining and i feel sleepy when its 12.40pm and i just had breakfast.
shall update later.
dad is irritating the daylights out of me.
and aunty isnt awake yet

ytd night couldnt sleep at all.
was super hungry around 1plus am
called brother if he could buy me food and that ass was in a cab home so he couldnt.
and he drank so much i could smell him from downstairs.
-.-
and he went to clarke quay!
jealous jealous >:(
I WANT.
urgh so spent the night/morning texting,lying on my bed,listening to music,with an emath paper next to me,
undone.
cos i was stuck on question 3.
still am,sorta.
:(
and i highly doubt dad is gonna let me out till i am done with it.
or maybe like he said,he has given up on me.
hope he really means what he say
:D

sigh weather is nice,but somehow something seems to be missing :(
alright.
byebye shall post again when i am bored rotting at home.
crossing fingers for town laterr.

ta

x



''correct or wrong?''


edited/

had a sudden change of mind and i cant decide now.
ipod touch or classic?
both has its pros and cons :(

i just msg debbie.
and she replied.telling me she's in japan.
o.o i seriously have something wrong with me.
its damn coincidental.
keep on msging those people who are overseas and have roaming
omg my bill is gonna sky rocket wth >:{

besides that,
i am fuming now.
and am about to say alot of horrid things,but no,not here.

you know how much i detest liars.
smelly asswipes.
yes.

anyway thank you to the person who called and sang songs.
lubz!
:B
going with mum tmr after guzheng to get it.

yes,
and off for online therapy now to cheer myself up.


bai.

x



sigh.

wondering pondering.

churched and ahseahed with the usuals.
was supposed to meet koo koo to go to some flea after church but that stupid girl pangsei me and ran off to malaysia with her mama.
:(

so went home to bathe,change,dropped my stuff and out i went.
for a busride.
bob the builder and dora the explorer hahaha wtf.
>:)

anyway just reached home,and i am gonna leave in a minute urgh.
leg hurts already.
my dad is crazy he wants to go to botanical gardens now.
ad poor me is gonna get dragged along to feed the mozzies.

anyway anywayyy,
tomorrow is the day!
yayayayayaay :D
wonder what to engrave on the poddy.
:}

yes and on a side note,camp is next week.
hope and crossing my fingers my roomates will be nice!
and after camp there will be bbqs yada yada to attend.
i am hoping parents will go off to malaysia.
gonna count on that,i dont care i am gonna find a way to make them leave.
then,its just gonna be me and kor.
and out every morning,afternoon,night.
:D

alright,dad is getting pissed.
he wants his botanical gardens.
and i have a feeling someone has touched my phone again
_\_
h8 it when they do that.

ahh heck.

goodbye all.

x

edited/

alright just came back from botanical gardens.

sucked.

walked,walked,and walked somemore.

remembered the reason why i stopped coming 4years ago.

-.-

hmm then went to longhouse to eat dinner,

drove to j8,

and home bitter home.

dad is in his kping mood again.

tsk.

and he's going crazy over maths now.

seriously,all i hear from him this days,is all about emath emath emath.

i cant wait for next year.

die die,even if i want to sleep and daydream,all that,

i will neverrr sleep in emath class ever again. (hear me pui pui my maths partner love &miss you)

and i will make sure i pay attention in every single emath class.

will force my eyes wide open,

and hopefully i wont fail so badly like this year(Ds,and Es),then i can shove the paper into his face

and he will stop his nonsense about emath.

its driving me crazy.

:(

sigh alright.

gonna go do the darn emath paper.

h8 it to the max.

bai and goodnight to all you.

x

why why?

had tuition early early in the morning.
quarrelled on the way.sigh
and he had to scream,in the car,when i am having a running nose and i feel all groggy.
z
thank goodness i wont have to go next week cos of camp.
pure horror.
i was the only one sitting in that cold freeeezing room sniffing away.
was so tired and sleepy that i didnt even bother to talk to the teacher since the start till the end of the class.
he just talked talked talked and i copied copied copied.
it was just about sign language and shaking my head whenever i didnt understand.
the only time i opened my mouth was to go to the toilet.
i guess mr ong could tell that i wasnt in the mood so he didnt kp haha.

then headed to ps,
walked around then homeee.

i feel a cold coming.
sigh
and dinner with ah gong later.

i just want my bed now.
groggy and my head feels heavy.
thinking bout my cash flow problems are adding on to my headache.
and my legs have little bumps that itch like crazy.must be the sandbox at aunty's last time :(
see smart eunice.
urgh
alright


bai

xo



when i get to warwick avenue.



edited/

just came back from ah gong's.
was kinda of hoping i could leave earlier to meet zhu for some carnival thingy at ps :(
but couldnt,cos the timings clashed.
oh well, spent time with ahgong today and i enjoyed it more than i thought i would.
cos we hardly eat dinner with him yup,and it kinda brought back memories
when i was younger,i used to go there everyday with my cousins,
and i used to get whacked by him all the time.
and i would run around the house with him chasing me behind with a cane.
i was a monkey you see.haha.
and when my ahma was still around,she used to protect me and would fend me from all his whacks.
its funny cos when i walked into the kitchen,i saw the same old cane hanging on the wall.
shivered.
haha.
yes so home i am now.
good night dear souls.

x

byebye then.

woke up early to walk down to interchange to satisfy my craving for macs :}
ate branch,

headed to school for cca.

which was a waste of 4hours cos i didnt even touch the guzheng since i stepped in.

got irritated due to the constant nagging.

z

ended around 5

hmm then off to meet aunty.

halfway through,got a pleasant surprise cos seah yirou msged again!

miss you dear fatty! :( :(

toa payoh,then bused back to serangoon.

ate at chomp chomp with jy too.

haha funny lah dey!

:D

reached home around 8.45plus.

mama not happy as usual.

oh well.

okay off off offf

cant w8888.

monday monday monday i am gonna get my podpodpoddy.

8)

was supposed to have guzheng but heck.no one's gonna get in my wayy.heh.

alright,goodnight readers.

x

sleepy,tired,sleepy,tired,sleepy,tired.

I'M GONNA GET MY PODDY :D

zomg i am freaking shocked my papa allowed!
hahha whoopeeeee :D

ohhh,and a cockroach just flew into my mum's hair and she started screaming like a bimbo and screeched for my dad's help in the kitchen.
amusinggg.
:}
dad squashed it while swearing in hokkien

poor roach.

and i just msged hanya seah yirou.
and and she replied my msg!
shit i forgot that she has roaming &^&^*&^*(&
smart eunice.
she's in europee and my bill :(
urgh anyway i miss her to pieces.it sort of felt good seeing her reply though its gonna cost a bomb.
cant w8 for her to come back
:(

manizer.

went over,
halfway got lost and fell into a little longkang.
i was just walking and suddenly i didnt see the darn hole and i fell into it.
embarrassing and it hurt
aunty just laugh laugh laugh >:(
watched little man and bused to toa payoh
ate,ate somemore then walked around,went back to serangoon
walked around somemore and home i went.

feel kinda lazy today.dont even feel like typing.
guess its the weather.
anyway i am offff to my online therapy heh :D
gonna try and look out for my victoria secret speedy and ipod classic!
:P
sigh unfortunately i am so broke there are flies flying out from my wallet :(
and have been arguing everyday with the mother lately,over anything under the sun.
infact,it just happened a minute ago.
i talk to her about wanting to go out,she talks about studying.
i talk to her about shopping,she talks about studying.
i talk to her about my day,she talks about studying.
i talk to her about my ipod,she talks about studying.
makes sense?
i give up.my throat is feeling sore already.
and i cant be bothered to get frustrated too.later get wrinkles!
anyway,
so i doubt theres a chance she's gonna sponser.
sigh oh well.
starve eunice.best way.


suddenly i feel like running out :(
feel damn cooped up in this house.
maybe i shall later.

goodbye people hope tonight's gonna be a peaceful one.
there's no tuition with the tightpants teacher till next year!
:D

cheers,

xo


ms invisible.

unclear

amanda taught me.
"chill yeahhhh!"
HAHA.

as much as i love her,i pity anybody who eats with her.

her bites are nibbles.

goshh waited forever for her to finish eatingg her waffle.

like an hour?

HAHA.

early in the morning,dental,then went to ica building to do my passport.

the service there was suckish.

got kinda frustrated with the ''upp.no no,your fringe cannottt.up up!"

and in the end,i ended up printing my old photo which i used for my ic.

so i wasted my time and 6bucks.

-.-

hmm and chionged tll homework there.

while the lady was using my left thumb to do the scanning thingy,my right hand was using a pen to write and i was doing a literature essay on twilight.

haah.

went to so much effort to do my hw cos i havent been passing up my work.

and last week i kinda irritated her by saying my homework got chewed up by the dogs.

she told me to cut it open and get my homework back.

._. so much for loving the animals.

then after that,chionged to paya lebar.

met kooooo.

did colour.

but isnt obvious at all >:(

so i am most prolly gonna wait for seah yirou then i shall go do it again.

heh.

hmm then we headed to novena cos i was gonna have dinner there and yeah we had nothing to do.

so walked around and after awhile we got tired so decided to find a place go slack.

found this really cute sheltered area.

haha camwhored and screamed like bitches due to me taking sheralyn's unglams and she trying to snatch my cam to delete it.

hahaa funnyyy.

stupid girlz.

hmm then after that she went off,prata with xiao qi gui and tuitioned on Las Vegas.

I WANT TO GET MARRIED AT VEGAS WHEN I GROW OLDER.

hahaha super funny you should see their ''elvis presley'' version of a pastor.

''would you love her sweet and tenderrr?"

"would you take him as your hunny bunbun"-and he shakes his hips from side to side-(or something like that.)

hmm but obviously i want a nicer wedding before that. :}

vegas is just for the kick of it.

:P

froze throughout and then home bitter home.

okay.

done for today.

bai bai bai taaaa.

xo

/

went with the mother to cut hair.

now my head feels light!
:)

then met pene,brenda and her boyfriend at cathay.

watched ''quarantined''

omg it is a darn good thriller!

scared ourselves silly and started screaming like nobody's business.

mouth feels darn filthy.

pene kept giggling,''heeheeheee'' then she would pause,and suddenly say''cheeeebyeeee''

o.o

HAHA and as for me,was trying to cover my ears and eyes at the same time.

its a sight huh.

and it was really funny cos when pene said cb,i was screaming ljjjjj

okay not funny.bad habit :(

and throughout the whole show,it was, laugh -gasp for air- %^&%* &,laugh somemore,then "ahhhh eff eff eff ahhh".

people infront turned behind to look.

i think we laughed and made too much noise -.-

hahaha anyway pene's a dear and she's really darn funny when you sit next to her during a horror flick.

:)

the story was mostly about people getting killed and it was bloodyyy gory :(

no wonder it is nc16.

but then again it was rather easy to sneak in though.easier than i thought it would turn out._.

heh.

hmm then after that waited for awhile and headed to bugis with aunty and aunty's sister.

walked around,got stuff haha,

and yup rushed home cos it was around 9plus and mother was pmsing as usual.

sigh ahh but count myself lucky that i could actually extend the timing i was suppose to reach home.

now kinda tired :(

gonna go rest my tired legs.

today has been walk walk walk nonstop :(

baiiii.

xo

sorry.