can you see me?

DDD's house,most came.
ate ate played ate sang karaoke and a car ride home in the night.
dont know why,but suddenly am missing the old times.
remember barbie,imagination games and the talking sessions about any and everything?
we were chilidsh,immature and happy.
sounds stupid,but i miss you anyway just so you know.

anyway right now,i am bored to the max.
its 1:03 ,and i dont know what am i doing.
empty empty empty.
have been getting the urge to run out of the door/jump out from my window
and leaving this place.
dont get whats with all this mixed up confusion.
so,i am not happy with the old guy.
S told me something today in subway and i feel rather worried about _
got my certification and stuff today and somehow i felt like i made the wrong choice.again.

sigh guess today is one of those days huh.
stupid,fat,ugly,sleepy,nostalgic.
what a horrible combination.irks me.

i miss F,D,N.

chinese O's tmr,
am rather relieved mine's long over,cos i would not have survived a take-two.
gonna sleep in,eat beancurd,curl up on my sofa watching my soapies and maybe out?depends.
all the best guys :>

later.

x

covet

amusing candid.
bell rang,
we were all ready and set to go byebye lol.

spent my week :

sleeping in hcl lessons(cos the normal chinese girls had intensive,so we were to have lessons too. worse week ever),talking cock with chng,she threw her bottle at my face and it hurt like ^*@&(&^& but i forgive you lah xo i bet i irritated the shit outta her haha so fun,whack here there everywhere :) hmm ate alot of fats.cried during a particular screening of some movie in school (it got to me lol) ate somemore,got caught by a certain mad dog for my pinafore on the second last day.irritated the hell out of me cos i did not want to get into more shit with the teachers.i am sick of it.the judging and all that.chng says i am unlucky.but how unlucky can i get already >:(

alright so thats my week.if you managed to read all that,good for you.
have been having issues with myself lately sigh why.

okay gotta stop thinking so much.
about you(no not you or whoever),about this,about that,about me,about results(my L1R5 is crazy man my dad's gonna burst a vessel)

goodnight all.
its the june holidays,like finally
so study hard,and play hard all.
cant wait to see the longtime mates tomorrow,deborah david and daniel's house.
Isabel,nicccc,debbb :>

sweet dreams.




x

if a golden train came to take you away would you go or would you stay.

new year's with fattiest.

had some war going on at night,i wanted to rip someone's face out and i swear i was burning.

do not really want to elaborate,cos it will merely be an angsty post.no no i dont want that.

anyway i was glad i finally could get it off my chest.

so i am home,missing school.

stupid war,at least something good came out of it.

was supposed to meet chng later for lunch but she cant make it sianxzx :(

shall prolly hole up in my room then,hibernating,sounds good :>

hallucinations are officially killing me.

flutters,butterflies,stomach twisting and turning.

i am crazy.

school's a bore,spent my ytd sleeping on my bag,getting patches on my face,and ended up laughing with chng over an ant at toapayoh.

thank god for today.

goodbye maties,am off for a good dosage of gossip girl and cereal.

am chanting,life's good life's good with/w/o you with/w/o you.

your sucha dickhead. ^^V

ps, sharon i like the justin nozuka song you wrote on my hand thq :D

x

physics,

open the fridge & put

my heart on a plate.

I'm just as you left

me,and i taste even better

leftover

Palefury,why did you leave me?

You're prickly

in the morning.So

prickly.

This isnt a cooking show

This isnt chemistry or geography.

Its physics.Pure physics,

I am falling fast & faster still.

So fall with me.Fall down with me.

And stay.

-GG

so days are good.'ve been going out shopping,therapy and all.

flea was cool bought stuff,and bumped into a few familiar faces.

i am on a lookout for prom stuff(i know its damn early)hehe but gives me more excuse to shop ^^

on a side note.

i.cant.effing.wait.for.june.

i am gonna study.cannot afford to get that disgusting CBCBCBF grades.my L1R5 cant make to ite even.even i am starting to think i am hopeless now zzz.

but,i will def not forget about my rest :>

the party?i dont know,waiting for the rest.need a plan so my mum wont think i am gonna go get raped/molested.

B was telling me in tuition bout it,going too i think.i go there,we settle.one on one COME LAHHHH hahahah.stupid asswipe.

i want stayovers.hahaha theres more behind it.

frolick at night (i want),L4D till morning,thats what chng said.lol.

ahh praying that my mama loves me enough ;D

laterr.

x

what do you call this?

i am officially hooked,

read two books in a day.finished the third one the next day.

not to mention,gossip girl is totally the best way to forget all your miseries.
this dearies,includes the getting back of my grades :)

1. so i get back my paper,pissified,demoralised,crashed,and _____(fill in the blank,with whatever you call upset)


2. then turn back to read the book


3. the next minute you know,i am laughing and sniggering to myself cos of the content in the book.


4. according to bimb,its contentless.and to some,its a bitchified book.


5. but thats what i like about it.doesnt require the usage of brain cells and its amusing in a way.go me :)

everyday's getting worse,i remembered going over to chng's house one day and screaming my ass off due to _o.o__ hahahahaha. yay chng agrees too ^^V
zahhhhh dammit was hyperventilating all the way home.
oh yes,and faith was being such a cutie pie as usual ;D


my ex tuition teacher added me on fb.
gave me a pleasant surprise cos i missed her,and she is in Italy with her Italian husband and her cows chickens dogs.(sounds cool huh)
seeing the pictures totally drives me jealous.


i want to migrate. n o w.

alright,gonna head off.
tomorrow's gonna be quite..hmm. hah.
results,__ and results C B C B,maybe D E F soon and ___.
sigh nvm,chng's gonna go with me and get my books.
i am gonna need much therapy.


may you all have an awesome night.

p.s pea uploaded the surprise thingy on facebook and omg haha i acted like i had a screw loose in my head.i guess thats when you get a bloody giftcard for topshop = shopping retail retail whoo hehe ^^ lol i love you guys lah okay thank you xxx


x

purest

spent saturday out,with fatty.

we shopped from 1plus all the way to 9pm? power haha

dinner at haji.cocktails,bacardi,cosmo ^(&(*&%&^(.damn so tempting,the boss couldnt care less anyway

so we mrted home.thank you fatty for travelling back to fareast in the night again just to get my shorts,sorry,lub you :P

sunday found me at sentosa.S drove up to tanjong beach.

spent the day lying on the mat with a beach towel over my face and the wind blowing at me ^^ overspent on food and drinks as usual.

homed around evening,and i am beat.sigh.

i need more to get more gossip girl books i am done with the two,gonna head down to get more soon cant wait 8)

everything else can screw off.

i likey.

x

what cheer,my love?

he is one hell of a guy i must say :)

CRYSTAL JING JING i owe you a note and a visit.love you lah :)

foursome,since primary two we have been stuck with the same cca.i still remember everything in the past.oh man,nostalgia.

find me,find me not.

it was one heck of a journey,darn i miss you.

rest of the photos will be up some other time cos blogger is being an asswipe and i look gross.

last paper heheh -throws confetti-

so i cancelled tuition last minute,

• rushed home bathed changed and out out out
• went to PS,walked around bought shit
• walked to fareast
• then headed back,and caught Angels and Demons.awesome.kept us in our seats and was biting my fingers half the time lol.
• around evening and headed off to play L4D at some lan shop.lol cheap thrills.and i must admit i suck.
• trained to vivo,shopped around,subwayed.

and home i went around 9 plusish,cos i decided i need to keep thy father happy so that i can leave the house more often whoo see mama i aint making trouble for him :>

anyway,on a side note,i realised i started tehing again,not good nope nope.

poor S and H has to take my nonsense.sigh but how.i miss,and i am gonna miss

this sucks.urgh okay i am gonna go drown myself in Gossip Girl.

hardcore catcing up reading, i borrowed three books already :B

we like to fantasize dont we? :) laterr.

x

girl,you are like the summer rain.

popsy should get a dog instead of me.
maybe a portable chiwawa where he can bring about everywhere ,and she ought to have a branded pink leather leash in my opinion.
if you are smart you will get what i mean.
anyway that left mum laughing lol.

"children are like caterpillars they eat and they sleep.then when they mature,they get wrapped up into a cocoon where it gets dark.They are trapped by themselves and they are to grow and mature in that condition.then one fine day,they will breakfree from the cocoon,in the form of a stunningly beautiful butterfly"

i realised M is getting more meaningful each day ha ha.
oh and i just found out,i am gonna be stuck with my dad for 5days while my mum is gonna go for somethingy.
thats after my exams.
boy ol boy i bet i am gonna give him a heart attack or maybe two ^^

late nights,books,mobile,ipod,feeling the shittiest of shits,coffee stains,
so if everybody has a heart then,how about me?

haha i am okay yes yes this aint some emo-fied post.
life's gonna get better.yep definately,after midyr's= retail,dinner,party party party hehehe.

i am gonna be a butterfly how bout you :>


x

myttm

guzheng pictures will be up soon soon promise. thanks D for the picture haha you pee :>

anyway,midyear's aint over but thank god for fridays so that i can finally breathe.

these few nights have been horrible,one look at me and you know it all.

i hate exams.

you walk into the freezing hall,just to sit down for how many hours,stare and be dumb,then feel like a major loser and go home to continue studying.

the next day,the same cycle repeats.

this week has been a major massacre of brain cells plus whatever dignity i have on my smartness.

haha am i even making sense -..-

anyway,i missed out on a lot of stuff and its building up in me how how how no more this sucks.

life's not treating me too well.

anyway am still contemplating if i should go to the flea with g.lover and maybe yirou?

studies or flea

sigh alright gonna go and tackle the amath book.bye.

x

for you,

the girls in guzheng tuan,always loved hating guzheng.

we hated it for a reason,and we loved it for a even better reason.

dammit,this is so sad.

after 8 years of guzheng,i am finally stepping down.

no more lessons,no more no more at all.

its sad.i am going to miss bitching about guzheng,complaining about everything.

the concert went well.last time i performed.and it was also the last time many others performed too.

people teared,people cried.

i guess we are all gonna miss our ccas.

honestly,in sec school,i do not see a single teacher i will be missing.whores asses, i am sorry.

surprisingly,the only teacher i see worth me coming back for to visit w/o any fail,will be my conductor.

• yeah.the guy who whacked me on the head with his bare hands.
• the guy who always whacked my hands.
• the guy who made me pull my ears standing in the hot sun for 1hour45mins infront of passerbys.
• the guy who spat saliva in my face whilst blasting at me.(since pri 2)
• the guy who made me cry two times( i hardly cry for such reasons)
• the guy who has instilled fear into every single guzheng girl's soul.

but guess what.

• he taught me hell alot of stuff in life.
• i have toughened up alot since i knew him.
• i have been following him since primary two and i swear,i am going to miss him.

i still rmb our primary school days okay.

sigh so sad.

this sucks.

thank you to the flower givers :)

thank you jing jing for the awesome note.i owe you one xx

haha even saw the church peeps attend the concert.

cass bren pui vanna so many so many others came to watch.

BUT SEAH YIROU WHERE WERE YOU.MY LAST PERFORMANCE OKAY ZAHHH :(

haha anyway,concert ended late,and the foursome went for supper.

homed around 12 in the night.

sigh,this is so sad.

i cant even concentrate on anything.

screw midyears ha ha ha.

i miss guzheng,i miss b-e :(

life's not fair. not fair at all.

alright,pictures will be up some other time.i have a load of them.

goodnight all.

x