update

part of my holiday,

zirca+martin's17th surprise

rest of the days spent either sleeping,eating,being fat or out with a fatty(hahaha),whom i have yet to take an id photo with!

hm,i know it's been ages since i came back to this space

i am getting too lazy for my own good

yes,so i guess this space will be left like that.

till i feel like i've got an urge to express myself

i am pretty contented with where i am now :)

the only thing annoying me right now,is that i gave up shopping today and i have to read up on my stupid lit book which seems to have a drowsy effect on me

why why why did we get such boring books

oh yes,not to mention,the house is pretty cold right now.

what can i do,the father's not happy.

sigh oh well.off to sparknotes.

here we go

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i know this space has been left to rot for quite some time,
too tired too lazy to update.
everything's messy everything's going too fast paced now
sigh
thank God for the one week break.
its gonna be a good week.
please.yes it will be

i will be back :)

brother

remember

when we were little kids,we would always get into squabbles.

we fought,we scratched,we bit ( okay maybe more like i bit),we screamed,we cursed

tho i always got beaten up badly,i won the battles,cos i had the best weapon one could get.

just needed to scream " MAAAAA"

and i win,straight away.

the hugs you give,the shoulder i always lean on.people always mistook us for a couple haha annoying but funny.

well,this sounds stupid and corny and mushy and ew i am not used to this but.

I miss you,please please be safe,come back home soon,and dont come back fat

Bon Voyage

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wake up

i spent my whole day either stuffing my face with bak kwa or sleeping in the car with music blasting into my ears

and now that i am back,i feel half dead.not to mention,i feel like strangling somebody now

but as usual,i guess its just all gonna go.give me a minute or two i still need to digest this.

nothing ever changes huh

hmm,oh yes and my brother's flying off in a few hours time to aussyland

university is robbing me of my brother :(

am telling myself to contain the waterworks,no no no not at changi airport infront of his friends+relatives omg no

so yes..happy chinese new year and happy valentines to you all out there

stay loving xx

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true

"cos you know,if he really cared,it wont be like that."

SAT>marche with friends>afternoon picnic outside the Fong's place with cute angmoh kids swinging their dogs in the air>later in the night headed to Eunice's place for her 21st birthday party HAPPY BDAY DEAR :)

its sunday evening and i can already feel the monday blues.just realised that i have homework i never knew about till today.

school tmr please be nice

sigh

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worth?

my current mood:

orientation was cool,1T10 siaaaa,KOJIN \m/,but still..school has been......

i miss PL

i do not want to join guzheng.i know i have been whining and been a total ass bout it since the day i appealed in,but really..i do not want to.i do not like it.why.whywhywhy fuck why sigh.

have you ever felt so alone sometimes.

yeah

anyway.am gonna meet friends tmr,boy have i missed them+their rubbish and the noise that comes along with it haha

TGIF.

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silence

i got posted to tpjc,but my appeal got through,so i am headed for cjc.

am really really unsure of what kind of direction i am steering towards

just today made me feel so mixed

i really wonder what is going to happen,cos at the back of my head it never fails to always come back and currently,its back,infact it never left.

i hate such a feeling,we are such insecure people.you get me?

not that there's anything to be secure about in my case.

sigh i am tired.

from school (hahaha i knoww right)

I made new friends in tpjc and it sucks cos just when i made friends,i am leaving again :(

new day once again,sigh

goodnight all,lets all hope i dont fall into the kallang river tmr,or get burnt or something.

am crossing all my fingers that this will be good

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i miss the holidays.

i miss sleeping at the oddest hours

i miss my nails

i miss my friends,all fucking all all all of them

i miss PL(i know i cant believe i just said it)

i miss having a stomach that doesnt screw you up when and wherever

i miss the feeling of midnight wind brushing against the tip of yr skin and it tingles

i miss listening to the bands play+drinkss+the company of friends+cameras(hahaha)

i miss knowing

i miss having something real

so yes,gonna head out soon,after 2 days of being stuck in school uniform,caged in a building till 3+,having a lililil bit of games,attending talks more talks and more more talks

i hate school and so should you hah

alright,bye bye bye bye you

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forgetting

ystd was spent either in bed/puking my guts out in th toilet.

finally headed to a medical centre around 2am+?

i swear the car ride there was horrible.was bloody weak and i needed my bro+mum to support me all the way.talk about drama.

we went to 2 clinics.

got really pissed off at the 1st clinic

my face was getting paler by th minute and all th lady cared about was talking cock

ended up driving to thomson.

my stomach's crazy now,its churning,i think i am down with gastric flu

and thank gosh i finally shitted.

i know it sounds disgusting,butttt,imma happy girl.i finallllllly shitted hehehehe.

kay enough.

on a side note,i do not know what i am doing.

do you have any idea? lol really.

hmmm alright,ipod's done syncing,

gonna go to the balcony and sit.it does wonders sometimes.

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