gone.

today started out happy.

and ended out like bullcrap.

shall say the unhappy things first

get it offffff my chest :(

he screamed and shouted at me today.

i had to rush off for dance so needed to be excused earlier

when i first asked,he said no and scolded me,so i couldnt be bothered i walked off,called my mum.

later she msged him and actually called him but he was ''too busy'' to talk.

bo ji

sorry huh i am rather angry right now.

then after he got my mum's msg,he came into the room and called me out.

infront of all my friends and juniors,started screaming and spitting saliva in my face.

saying that i kept missing guzheng and that i didnt care about the cca at all.

then scolded me for not turning up in the morning to practice extra since i would be leaving earlier and not turning up tmr.

to add on to things he started going on and on about how disappointed he was in me,and how i shouldnt act blur yadyada crap.

i was boiling.

hello mister.

number one.i did not pon cca many times.i had valid reasons.and you allowed me to miss it so whats your problem.

number two.the lesson in the morning is for the sec1s.i am sec3,how would i know i am supposed to turn up if nobody informed me?you told me to take the initiative but the thing is that i didnt even know that such a thing existed,so how am i supposed to ask?

number three.who the hell say i act blur.i really didnt know.and why should you be disappointed in me if i didnt do anything wrong?you are the one that lacks understanding.

i was fuming.

he screamed so loud,that even the band girls overheard the whole thing.

i am not even at fault here.i have fulldress dance rehearsal.i cannot miss it what do you want me to do.

yes i have my grade 8 gz exam coming up but right now my performance is more impt cos its this sat.

this is pirioty.

i cried.for the first time in my whole secondary school life i actually cried in school amd infront of humans -.-

my life isnt exactly a bed of roses,and there has been plenty of shit fag times but but i cant believe i actually cried for guzheng.

of all things.

i wasnt sad.

i was pissed,mad,that i wanted to blow up,and just screw him in his face but yet,i couldnt.

so near and yet so far.no?

hah.

anyway.

thank God for the cool taxi driver that gave me a packet of tissue and told me the day would get better,and aunty who called the minute i was upset,and my dance friends who showered me with hugs.

:)

oh yes,did i mention,he used force on me.

i can sue your ass bastard.

forget it.

shant talk about this anymoree waste my energy,heh.

woke up early today and went to watch people ice skate

hahaha funny.

laughed laughed.

yeap.

:)

anyway anyhow tmr's gonna be dance dance and hopefully with fingers crossed,dinner :)

goodbye lovelies.

hope it'll be a better day.

xo