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update

2010-03-20T07:45:00.001-07:00

part of my holiday,

zirca+martin's17th surprise

rest of the days spent either sleeping,eating,being fat or out with a fatty(hahaha),whom i have yet to take an id photo with!

hm,i know it's been ages since i came back to this space

i am getting too lazy for my own good

yes,so i guess this space will be left like that.

till i feel like i've got an urge to express myself

i am pretty contented with where i am now :)

the only thing annoying me right now,is that i gave up shopping today and i have to read up on my stupid lit book which seems to have a drowsy effect on me

why why why did we get such boring books

oh yes,not to mention,the house is pretty cold right now.

what can i do,the father's not happy.

sigh oh well.off to sparknotes.

here we go

2010-03-12T17:56:00.000-08:00

i know this space has been left to rot for quite some time,
too tired too lazy to update.
everything's messy everything's going too fast paced now
sigh
thank God for the one week break.
its gonna be a good week.
please.yes it will be

i will be back :)

brother

2010-02-15T07:25:00.000-08:00

remember

when we were little kids,we would always get into squabbles.

we fought,we scratched,we bit ( okay maybe more like i bit),we screamed,we cursed

tho i always got beaten up badly,i won the battles,cos i had the best weapon one could get.

just needed to scream " MAAAAA"

and i win,straight away.

the hugs you give,the shoulder i always lean on.people always mistook us for a couple haha annoying but funny.

well,this sounds stupid and corny and mushy and ew i am not used to this but.

I miss you,please please be safe,come back home soon,and dont come back fat

Bon Voyage

wake up

2010-02-14T06:57:00.001-08:00

i spent my whole day either stuffing my face with bak kwa or sleeping in the car with music blasting into my ears

and now that i am back,i feel half dead.not to mention,i feel like strangling somebody now

but as usual,i guess its just all gonna go.give me a minute or two i still need to digest this.

nothing ever changes huh

hmm,oh yes and my brother's flying off in a few hours time to aussyland

university is robbing me of my brother :(

am telling myself to contain the waterworks,no no no not at changi airport infront of his friends+relatives omg no

so yes..happy chinese new year and happy valentines to you all out there

stay loving xx

true

2010-02-07T02:21:00.000-08:00

"cos you know,if he really cared,it wont be like that."

SAT>marche with friends>afternoon picnic outside the Fong's place with cute angmoh kids swinging their dogs in the air>later in the night headed to Eunice's place for her 21st birthday party HAPPY BDAY DEAR :)

its sunday evening and i can already feel the monday blues.just realised that i have homework i never knew about till today.

school tmr please be nice

sigh

worth?

2010-02-05T00:50:00.000-08:00

my current mood:

orientation was cool,1T10 siaaaa,KOJIN \m/,but still..school has been......

i miss PL

i do not want to join guzheng.i know i have been whining and been a total ass bout it since the day i appealed in,but really..i do not want to.i do not like it.why.whywhywhy fuck why sigh.

have you ever felt so alone sometimes.

yeah

anyway.am gonna meet friends tmr,boy have i missed them+their rubbish and the noise that comes along with it haha

TGIF.

silence

2010-02-01T06:23:00.000-08:00

i got posted to tpjc,but my appeal got through,so i am headed for cjc.

am really really unsure of what kind of direction i am steering towards

just today made me feel so mixed

i really wonder what is going to happen,cos at the back of my head it never fails to always come back and currently,its back,infact it never left.

i hate such a feeling,we are such insecure people.you get me?

not that there's anything to be secure about in my case.

sigh i am tired.

from school (hahaha i knoww right)

I made new friends in tpjc and it sucks cos just when i made friends,i am leaving again :(

new day once again,sigh

goodnight all,lets all hope i dont fall into the kallang river tmr,or get burnt or something.

am crossing all my fingers that this will be good

2010-01-29T08:08:00.000-08:00

i miss the holidays.

i miss sleeping at the oddest hours

i miss my nails

i miss my friends,all fucking all all all of them

i miss PL(i know i cant believe i just said it)

i miss having a stomach that doesnt screw you up when and wherever

i miss the feeling of midnight wind brushing against the tip of yr skin and it tingles

i miss listening to the bands play+drinkss+the company of friends+cameras(hahaha)

i miss knowing

i miss having something real

so yes,gonna head out soon,after 2 days of being stuck in school uniform,caged in a building till 3+,having a lililil bit of games,attending talks more talks and more more talks

i hate school and so should you hah

alright,bye bye bye bye you

forgetting

2010-01-25T02:06:00.000-08:00

ystd was spent either in bed/puking my guts out in th toilet.

finally headed to a medical centre around 2am+?

i swear the car ride there was horrible.was bloody weak and i needed my bro+mum to support me all the way.talk about drama.

we went to 2 clinics.

got really pissed off at the 1st clinic

my face was getting paler by th minute and all th lady cared about was talking cock

ended up driving to thomson.

my stomach's crazy now,its churning,i think i am down with gastric flu

and thank gosh i finally shitted.

i know it sounds disgusting,butttt,imma happy girl.i finallllllly shitted hehehehe.

kay enough.

on a side note,i do not know what i am doing.

do you have any idea? lol really.

hmmm alright,ipod's done syncing,

gonna go to the balcony and sit.it does wonders sometimes.

far

2010-01-22T10:21:00.000-08:00

as usual,its going to 4+am and i am not even close to yawning
spent ystd day and night out>aftrnoon with fatty>night ate pizza, drank drank yummy bitter sweet sour>caught a midnight movie on angels cursing crawling on walls and chewing off ppl's necks>headed back>slept>ate>slept somemore.
and today we had dinner at the Fong's.

currently,there's a strong gust of wind and my hair's still damp,i am all sprawled out on my chair.it's times like this when you just like to think and think and think
i think too much.
i realised that i overanalyse overthink overfeel
get what i mean?maybe thats why literature class was th only class i hardly ever doze off in,apart from the few few times i ended up on my lego bag/when i was drooling(do not laugh).or maybe it was th jumping jacks th teacher forced us to do everytime somebody looked sleepy.

i do not feel sleepy,but tired.does that make sense?
i wonder,how does it feel to be you
really got to start listening.

mm alright,i have this strong suspicion that the father's gonna wake up any minute,stomp downstairs and once again i am in for one hell of a ride.so i think it's safer to camp upstairs ha ha so yesss goodnight or goodmorning stay happy all bai

x

2010-01-19T04:20:00.000-08:00

pictures taken from jewel's nikon :)

went to the barker boys chalet,was good

so yeah,halfway through we were hungry and ended up walking to changi village,

saw trannys.which were disgusting i swear they werent wearing bras and according to a few they were eyeing martin hahaha

plus,ystd was me seeing M jump from all the roaches which was rather amusing lol

he was a red lobster,crazzzzy.

so yeap hardly slept a wink and by the time i got back i overslept and woke up to my dental's angry call

yes i missed dental again,well done the way i am going,i am never gonna take off my braces man :(

that was how i spent my monday+abit of my tuesday,rest of tuesday was spent in bed while pangsei-ing pea toh who was working her butt off in guzheng just to get us both th letter.hehe thanks love :)

weeell school's starting soon,parents are starting the same ol' talk sigh am not ready no no no i aint

just thinking about having to get my butt up and out of the house at that unearthly hour makes me feel like.. zzZZzzzZZZ( haha chng!)

am trying not to think about it for now.am looking forward to tmr,

need.to.get.out whooopwhoop

its 2:30am,i am currently staring at th computer screen,th music's blasting,and i am wondering.

well looks like i am not gonna be sleeping anytime soon,

this holiday has been making me feel like an owl i am turning nocturnal alr,this sucks

k dad's awake and he's not happy bye

tell me,did you fall for a shooting star

2010-01-13T09:48:00.000-08:00

burnburnburn

maybe cos its 3am but i am having a craving that i swear is gonna make me go so broke.i must admit that the reason behind this is rather immature and foolish.i am trying to contain myself.i am trying to reason with myself and.currently,i am fighting a losing battle with myself ha ha ha mannn i dont think i even sound coherent.

2010-01-12T05:19:00.000-08:00

results werent good,but at least i ought to thank God that i passed hcl
CfuckinFIVE hahaha i proved to my teacher that even though we sleep in almost every single hcl class of hers we can still pass hehehe take that asswipe.
other than that,getting back results was horrible.
father was sighing the whole time,it wasnt up to his expectations
people asked,aunties called when i was sleeping(phew)
am kinda disappointed with myself,but ohwell i am just hoping i can make it to where i wanna go.
anyway,thank you friendszxs for the hugs the comforting and stuff.i dont know what PL would be w/o you guys <3

well on a side note,had the company of hanya and cassthehole today.
day consisted of both of them throwing me fingers+''ball-less fuck and the __ tell you to eff off' line'' sorry too crude but hahaha th only thing that kept me laughing throughout th whole ride on th mrt.luv my friends lol
i guess we need to wake up.

so yep,that was my day,how was your's?

x

breathe

2010-01-10T08:40:00.000-08:00

->few days back,was good was good.swirl swirl float float hahaha oh yes and the burning throat drink was th power.

summary:

food,drinks,more of the second,macs at 1-2am,S's house,scary dog(LOL jk),bimb's board game at 3am which failed for me,slept for 2hrs+ and rushed home to prepare to meet fatty in th morning.pounding head,i died on the bus

anywayy,tomorrow's the day.i dont know what to feel.

damn,no i will not shit in my pants hahaha

funny,but it feels like psle all over again.the family,the phone calls,nope not good.

alright,its getting late,my hair is wet,i am missing,dad's annoyed once again,and oh yess,th brother is coming back from HK hehehe i am gonna wait up!

we have decided to meet up early tmr before the shit begins,one last breath of shopping LOL

and no i dont want to remove my nail polish

am humming to myself you can do it you can do it shut up you can do it
so yes,goodluck friendzzz sleep early(bull i know lol) and sweet dreams

break

2010-01-07T08:09:00.000-08:00

credits:tumbr

mmmmmmmmmmmmmmm

its late,i think i am turning nocturnal

and i feel like drowning whatever feelings i am feeling in starbucks frappe,mango margaritas,mixxymixxy yumyum

just realised a day ago,results will be out this coming monday

i am planning to lock myself home or maybe fly off to bkk if it turns out bad

anyone wants to fly with me? i wish you did hahaha slap myself la

anyway,just yesterday me,hanya,cassholeflatface headed to pene's place around 12am to give her a surprise.

luvvvv th cake we did for her HAHA good stuff,shall post a picture when the com decides not to be so bitchy

it went well,yay hope you liked it pwene.happy seventeenth <3

so yes,i am trying,and its affecting me more than i thought it would but too bad for me i was stupid

need distraction n o w w w w

okay,looking forward to tmr night

so sleep tight everybody dont let the bed bugs bite

so,what do you do

2010-01-04T16:53:00.000-08:00

its 9:21am,just got back and am currently on my bed dying
yet yes,i have no idea what i am doing here.
okay,maybe i do know why,but i am still living in self denial,i know i suck yes.
anyway,yesterday+tday=gossip girl
consisted of me shedding tears for chuck bass(dont laugh) ,staring,thinking,screaming around 4+am in bimb's house cos chuck finally said an ' i love you' to blair,and concurrently waking bimb's mum due to my screams,not to mention i replayed it twice hahaha erm and let's see
waking up today morning knowing how she felt,not to mention,stepping in a messy goo of squashed up snail did not helped either.

so yes,other than that,i feel.
bad.really,really bad
grouchy too.

i think maybe i should start to hide in my hole.
i really dont know what's worse
mhmm,alright,angsty angsty aint good.not to mention th lack of sleeeeep.guess i am going to dreamland right now goodmorning,goodnight you.

x

New year's eve

2009-12-29T06:14:00.000-08:00

RECENTLY

LOOKING BACK (not in order,so if you see unglam photos with ugly hair,try guessing th era hahaha)

i just had to post this man LOL

forever a cutie haha she's gna whack me if she sees this

something i found,going back to primary2

1st person to cause me to cry in school

1st person to make me pull my ears for hours

1st person to scream+spit saliva in my face

1st person to whack my fingers

1st person to make me get nightmares (i am not kidding)

funny,but,somebody really special to me

primary2-sec4 and i am finally done with dance,grade 13

HAHAHA

good ol pri school

Here's to the end of of 2009

i re-read my previous posts from way back,even from the starting of 2009 and i just realised that this year flew by so fast

i dont even feel like a 16 year old,going on 17

anyway,2009 had its pretty and ugly side

i think that this year has definitely taught me alot,in terms of mentally and physically

the Olvl truama+stress,i will def not forget,learnt a hell lot

and i am pretty terrified of whats the result gonna be

but lets just say that well,i think i have learnt my lesson

i am still trying to find my faith,its been tough,but i guess its just part and parcel of life,yes?

you know the feeling whereby you are stuck inbetween cos you cant move forward and neither can you turn back.everything is filled with its own doubts and you just aint sure whats gonna be for the better.they always say,listen to your heart,but so far,th heart hasnt been leading you to the correct places.then what do you do?

so lets just say,that i am pretty unsure about 2010

theres gonna be alot of changes,school,home,yadayada

darn,i dont think i am ready man

but,who is?

well well well,anyway,i am grateful that i have friends,that through it all,stick by you

i am hoping with all my fingers+toes crossed that i wont ever drift from anyone important to me

so..yeah,have an awesome new years eve everybody,cos tomorrow,its gonna be a whole new day.

outtttt

Lips of an angel

2009-12-27T02:41:00.000-08:00

credits to tumblr

what this week gave me:

Christmas didnt really feel so 'christmasy' this year.it seemed to fly by so fastt

anyway spent christmas going to church,followed by having lunch with friends,then went to find porky lim to pass him his souvenior hahaha.

i still remember sniggering to myself as i purchased it lol

went to the Fong's place.DDRed with hands+feet.just picture it lol

later on in the night,the brothers went to play lan,while deborah and i went shopping.she mangaged to convince me into getting the pair of heels that were going off at a steal heehee yay

but even so,a happy girl is a broke girl now :c

as for today,ate lunch with jon yuen and mannn its 8+pm and i am still fulll

M left for chinaa and i got th bunzxz lol

mm so yeah,currently,

i am not hungry,but my mouth is itchy and it needs a snack
i am staring at th computer screen and i dont know what to type
i dont like this
i am sleeeeepy
i need my retail therapy soon.lots of clothes please,got to stop looking at shoes
i dont think i am ready for 2010

we will get by,yes yes?

alright i am offf ta

itreallyisntfair

2009-12-20T00:17:00.002-08:00

(above) sentosa.

(below) manila

a few photos today before i leave the house.

ystd night was spent at a party with jingjing+her boyf lex+lex's sister

it was fun,the house was $#%*&*(^ pretty,and that little girl was so so cute hahaha

mm on a side note,its messy messy messy.

i just typed out this whole chunk of words,only to backspace everything

skipped the flea today my mood's getting bad not to mention i am sleeeeepy

look on th bright side i just saved myself from another streak of poverty hah

i have a serious craving right now and i want to satisfy it later on

ok make it a must.

"trust that God knows what's best for you and He'll only lead where love can go"

-i am keeping this in mind.

i love jodie :)

ohman this makes me miss manila even more.

alright for now i got to find a way out of here

lets hope the night turns out fine,bye all.

hot and cold

2009-12-18T06:13:00.000-08:00

hey hey hey
this is such a dead blog.
anyway i am currently too lazy and in no condition to even attempt being patient with uploading pictures,so pictures another day :)

just came back from manila.manila was awesome.i miss the people there.i wish i could fly back n-o-w. :(
got busted yesterday,not good.
had a pretty good time though hahaha yay we found a good place to go to heehee
i am sick and tired

i do not like how i am feeling.sucCkKsSsS.

realised that i really do not know how to express myself.have been staring at the computer screen for 12345 mins and i really do not know what to say.no no this is not good.

let's just say i expected more.

alright,gonna go join my brother in his 5km run/jog soon.

its 10.30pm and i am crossing my fingers that i dont die of exhaustion.am keeping in mind,for the sake of fats for the sake of fats ha ha ha

go me

2009-11-28T08:32:00.000-08:00

update:

prom,headed to butter,walked cabbed ate,went sightseeing th next morning,then cabbed home and crashed

went from heels,to takashimaya's(lol) shoes,to the mandarin oriental's bathroom slippers

walking+dancing in heels killed me.maybe i am just plain lousy but i still feel the sore from the damn 5inch charles and keith lol

mmm am too lazy to elaborate once again,and its getting late,so let the pictures do the talking shall we? :)

a load on my mind,i need my soapies nao

note to self:

-9:45 tmr do.not.be.late

-stop snacking you pig

-get a grip

-i need coffeeee,mm maybe tomorrow

bye

2009-11-19T06:54:00.000-08:00

chalet+party

just got back not too long ago.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY HANYA FATTY I LOVE YOU

you know you're a pretty special person to me right <3

primary 2/3 and counting.

thank you for all that you've done for me

be it,wrestling me on your bed,pulling up my skirt,pinching my fats,bullying me,lending me your ear,helping me,giving me advice(though i hardly listen ha ha),and you know what,just being there for me.

we are gonna grow old together,remember?

haha anw yes hope you had an awesome day today :)

alrighttt.facebook aint cooperating with me i cant upload any shit.

zah.

too lazy,and i am dead tired.

its getting worse.havent been sleeping much since O's

karma has been biting my ass recently too.

oh well on the bright side,i finally found my prom dress heehee.

wanted to kill myself though.i promised myself not to buy smtg black again

but i ended up eyeing something in that colour -.-

oooright,

gna end here for now,am too tired,and i aint thinking properly anymore.

night all

2009-11-17T04:41:00.000-08:00

i feel so lazy my head's floating we are dead beat

sunday-slept at 5.30 am
monday-slept at 6plusish am
currently at debbie's,aint planning to sleep we are gonna have a gossip girl marathon hehe chace crawford you're so hot hahaha ^^

shall update tmr when i finally get home,mass attack of pictures man

ps. sheralyn chng i know i sent you a mail on fb but seriouslyyyy i wish i could drag yr ass back from bkk nao haha miss you la you pervert hurrrrrrrrrrrrrrry fly back.

taa

letshavesomefun

2009-11-13T07:14:00.000-08:00

its late and i cant get to sleep
its raining now pitterpatterdripdrop and my hair's wet
i feel so damn bloated+tired from today
O'S ARE OVER~~~~~
the dance exam is restricting me from doing my damn hair with friends %*&^*&^(*&
chalet heehee
i need to find topshop shit
i shouldnt be huh

no i shall not kill this post

need.to.sleep so so badly but i just cant.stomach's acting up too zahh

ahh alright,gonna go find my sobsob dramas now.they work wonders ^^

night all

2009-11-06T01:09:00.000-08:00

its been long blogger its been long.

and no i still aint done with O's,theres still paper 1 chem,bio and hcl.

oh good lord,higher chinese.haha mann is this going to be amusing.

anyway,this two weeks have been hell i am not kidding nor am i trying to fake it cos you know what this two weeks i have been a baby i have been stressed out i look like,feel like,move like a zombie.i screwed a few papers up inclusive of today,nope i dont feel too good but who cares.i have been sitting on th perch of my kitchen's toilet everyday looking out and feeling so damn depressed demoralised and stupid.

wao wao wao haha okay i think i am done with whining i needed to get it out of my system.well anywayy in random order

B AND I ARE GONNA HAVE A CAT WE SHALL NAME IT BITCHTARD
moe should really consider the feelings of those who do both pure bio and pure lit who have to take 3 papers,both of equal importance and weightage.cos its stupid to put 3 papers in one day.they screw things facts and everything up.it makes them angsty people
i teared paper today and boy did it make me feel good
i think i suck at handling such stuff
no offence i think you are an asshole
thank God for brothers

okayy i am done for now,there's dance tonight,please dont kill me.

be strong.

2009-10-16T07:58:00.001-07:00

looks wrong but heck laa loveyou all the same,hahaha

HANYA YOU SUCK ASS LA FOREVER AND EVER MORE HAHAHA

today's the last day of school for th sec4s,and i missed it,haha sorry saraaah ily i still want th picture okk i dont care i am gna force it out of you ;)

anyway,will have a proper post after O's,10 years of PL and girlfriends,damn i am gonna miss xo

as for noww

brain is going through serious information overload,dance teacher is making my life difficult,i am dying i feel stupid i feel tired,just the other day i was sitting next to the window and was so pissed i wanted to throw my textbk outta the window at 1am in the morning i am not kidding

oh yes and biology has been hilariously amusing.you should see the debates in school.

i understand that we are wonderfully made and all,you should see the anatomy of our human body,but its getting too complex for me.(my friends agree too haha)

as a bio student,i really wished we just had 2 eyeballs,1 stomach,1 mouth,a pair of hands,legs,and a heart.

no need for all the circulation and all that yadayada.

just cell division alone is making me feel like the dumbest thing on earth.

sigh okay i think i just spouted a whole load of nonsense,the stress must be getting into my head.

its 11 20 now,i just got home not too long ago and i need to bathe.

grouchy+tired i feel like i've eaten a ball of fire.

bye

he'll make a way

2009-10-09T00:09:00.000-07:00

i have been drowning myself in coffee the whole week aha

mood has been going up down up down left right centre

school+tys+little sleep=siaoseowsiao pissing bimbo yew off haha ^^

anyway,today marks th end of school for those who scored lower than 14,

not me,i am still contemplating on whether i should just hide the card or show and get shot.

well just passing round the photos today,and its funny how i hate the place but love the friends

am gonna miss the crazy shitass times man :(

alrighty,need to go find my lover Mr books books books here i come.

having a migrane now damn

please tell me yknow what you are doing,

have a happy weekend yall

eats you out

2009-10-02T01:55:00.000-07:00

i feel like a zombie

just drank coffee, damn does it taste good

and now i am looking at pretty girls ha ha

there's dance tonight sigh,here's to another round of "XIAO YI MIN XIAO YI MIN XIAO YI MIN" ahh throw you riceball _\_

dont feel too good,sigh lol this is so depressing,i just realised that everytime i blog,its either me whining(according to joel yu/somebody i forgot haah) or being angsty

oh well,just wait till after O's shall we?

good times on the rollll~ c:

alright, thats all for now.

have a happy weekend guys,

lets not think too much,i will not i will not i will not

bye

ilikepicturesdoyou

2009-09-21T08:31:00.000-07:00

th hall's been alright
colddd,the worksheets are annoying,

but since our tables are right at the back,its been pretty nice

not to mention the sudden spurts of craziness my friends get lolol,blame the stress,not to mention th damn pingpongballs+table at the back hahah

its coming its coming i can smell it already

damn,we will never be prepared huh.

well over this week,

i have wanted to be blind,curse my eyes seriously,wanted to fly,wanted sleep wanted coffee wanted a new brain wanted more sleep wanted to shop wanted to shop even more

ha ha ha

i think i aint thinking properly anymore.

i feel floaty once again

head's woozy,sigh

okkk thats all for today,there's dance later,and i am hoping that i will pull through without anymore aches.

please be nice please please

k mum's not happy i am not happy bye

demolition

2009-09-19T00:02:00.000-07:00

am currently watching the repeat of th VMAs ,lol am specially waiting to catch kanye's asshole move.
okay,maybe he was just drunk.
but totally wrong timing man,now the whole world's screwing him hahaha

hmm this week has been
good:
-parents finallyyyyy agreed to let me go to bk hehehe,well that was after the ridiculous war.
-oinkoink

bad:
-karma bit my ass one too many times
-got back some results.i am pretty much convinced that i have a chance of failing O's
-it was pretty depressing,AND CHNG YOU ARE PERVERTIC HAHA I SWEARRR
-plus,now i dont even dare find out if i am still able to go to bk :(

lol alrighty,gonna head off,
books,coffee,pillow,here i come.

x

little things,

2009-09-12T02:38:00.000-07:00

a week flew by so fast that coming to think of it,i cant really remember what i did.

not good.

so vaguely,

studying has become sucha pain in the butt like seriously :(
wasnt supposed to be out,played hide-and-seek which failed miserably lol
and i am broke now,sigh.
oh yes,and it is pretty miserable to find out that school is gonna be till 4pm every day in term 4.
my ass+brain+whatever that is left of me is gonna rot even before O's begin :<
just the other day,my aunt told me that she went shopping for me cos she supposedly thought that i was at home studying.i felt like kicking myself when i heard that.
coffeeee.dammit,my cravings are starting again.

mhhm so thats all for now.

mum's out,dad's in.and i gotta fly.

bye.

2009-09-04T11:18:00.000-07:00

super old photos which i uncovered,hello 2007.

my stomach's churning now grrgrr grr,its 2.30plusplus am

need.to.sleep.

goodnight all,i love weekends :>

2009-08-29T05:28:00.000-07:00

my computer's down,using the laptop
and now blogger's irritating me too
i cant upload the damn old pictures which i found on this lappy why why whyyy so wasted darn

mhm anywayy this week gave me:
-hardly any sleep
-i can puke out bio now
-a slightly swollen blueblack that hurts to the high heavens
-aching body thanks to dance+3hours of sleep the night before

but but thank God for
-letting me pull through this week
-answer sheets and booklets
-coffee tea coffee tea coffee
-my pillow
-porkyporkchopz heehee C:
(i know you can see this hahaha idiot)

the cute small boy left for aussy today he's migrating so sad i failed to get a picture with him
he's gonna be a playboy when he grows up i tell you
he's good at charming girls lol even my mum haha

anww am thinking of going on hiatus,yet i still cant bring myself to cutting myself off from cyberworld just yet.
so alright shall end here for now.

miss me miss you see you soon
chao

x

2009-08-21T09:02:00.000-07:00

my stomach's churning.
chngg i still want to puke out the kaya thing lol
my eyes hurt
its getting late
21/22chapters of unfinished bio
mhmm
i am smiling now
hahahaha
shit.

alright,one week down,next week's prelims again
cant wait for it to be all over, i need to breathe
do you feel the heat do you do you.
mhm i think the so called heat is burning my ass right now
zah.
well its now 1plusplus and i am in need of sleep really badly
sweet dreams all

x

hush

2009-08-13T23:31:00.000-07:00

how my week went:

english- i had a vocab brain block and failed in my attempt to being a patriot.

social studies- i left a huge blank inthe middle of the paper and continued writing after leaving half of my essay blank

geography- i only knew one answer to section A which i've a feeling i got that wrong too

hcl-this is the best out of all
we were supposed to write about economic downturn.i saw the word"jing ying(or something like that)hai xiao"
and thought it meant tsunami.
therefore,i wrote two pages worth of my family's house getting swept away by the tsunami.

my stupidity.i feel like slapping myself.
anyway,i bet the teachers are going to get a good laugh at the crap i handed in.

thank goodness its friday.
i smell,shopping coffee and sleeeep yess finally.

this week has been crazily disgustingly gross.
and i sense that i am in for depression once again when the next papers start again
sigh oh well got to buck up got to buck uppp.

but before that,bye all cant wait to step out later and smell the nice fresh scent of shopping centres plus the dance studio
hehe its been long ^^

x

prelims

2009-08-04T08:52:00.000-07:00

sorry for neglecting.

school's been tough do you feel the pressure yes yes i do

prelims are next week,

just gotten down to revision and yes,as usual,i just realised that i do not have enough time.

mhm my bad.i guess i will be screwing the papers up once again sigh this sucks.

oh well,as for noww meet me after a week or two or three,

will be facebooking though hehe.

dont miss me,i will be backkk

little of your time

2009-07-26T03:43:00.000-07:00

dillydallying once again,damn books.
had a nightmare in the middle of the afternoon,with all my worst fears happening all in a dream.
it has been long,damn.
tingles in silly places
smiling
annoyed
stressed
fatssdietdietdiet
you
chocolate
waiting
upupdowndownleftrightcenter
booksnotesfiles
coffee

dont you feel like slapping yourself sometimes?
mhm i do.

alright,to the books now,if i still want to go for the upcoming flea!
tie myself to the chair.
i've got rope.hahaha

x

RHD

2009-07-26T03:04:00.000-07:00

cos it was made compulsory for my class on friday,

i ended up looking like a bangla(according to sarah) for a day.

lol spent the day texting dying rotting decomposing,studying with stef and lum, sitting on pui's lap and disturbing her

yup so that was RH day for you.

2009-07-18T08:54:00.000-07:00

my cd betrayed me today,i ended up dancing without music.
i am so gonna break it into half after my final grading exam is over.

well,the week has been exhausting stressful.
i am aching all over,even my ribs man.damn dance.
anyway thank you stef,i love you dear for what you did.sorry for being so last minute :/
i owe youuu -blows a kiss-
haha and pui thanks for the cd hahah i am so gonna drop the damn coin down your blouse one day.

i found myself having a problem with my own self today
its a rollercoaster ride,and its hard to stay away from it

ah ok shall not rant here
so lets hope life will continue being nice to me
need to study if i still want to pass my subjects and survive
night guys,gonna go star watch and think hahaha.

laterrr

xx

inspire

2009-07-13T04:00:00.000-07:00

i feel like
running off
banging my head on the wall
getting a bigger brain
going for lipo

damn prelims,damn auditions

yes i ammmm stressssseddddddd

x

love lockdown

2009-07-11T00:24:00.000-07:00

4A3's middle row ftw ^^V

school has been the usual horrid yawn yawn yawn

hmm i've got to start studying yes yes

the darn school has already put up those countdown thingys saying when's O's and prelims

auditions are coming up,and ha ha ha yeah i aint prepared

sometimes as cliche and typical this sounds,i wish someone could pick me up and fly me away

we could go anywhere,i wouldnt mind.

alright,gonna hit the bedsheets now.maybe with a book next to me,to diffuse information into my head.(what crap am i saying haha)

not enough sleep,i look like shit,my self-esteem is starting to dive down once again,i want to shop myself a cure and get caffeine into my system.

laterrr guys.

hope

2009-07-07T03:29:00.000-07:00

okay i give up trying to upload the photos here.blogger is so screwed in the ass.
its annoying me once again gah even photobucket wont help me.
its all on facebook go see haha

i had a jolly good time on monday
headed out with friends to celebrate chng's birthday.
played around,bowled,camwhored,and
wellll ate so much sushi i swear i am gonna puke if you put sushi infront of me now.
didnt eat dinner after that,which was gooooood.
when the others left,we walked around and took neoprints too hehe ^^V
welll,love,hope you had an awesome day :)

i forgot what i did today in school,except for watching some pretty cool mj video,and writing down my whole list of things to do after O's during lesson.
hahah shit,i cant wait.

on a side note,life's good life's good,tell yourself that.
lets just hope insecurities wont eat you alive.yes no?

lol alright parents are out tonight,and i am home alone.
awesomeee

x

2009-07-05T08:35:00.000-07:00

ignore the finger lol

happy sweet sixteen sheralyn chng kookoo
thank you for everything,like seriously,thank God for you.
thank you for forever being there to listen to me whine,rant,spout shit
thank you for bearing with my nonsense and always letting me copy off you in class.
i remember once during some chem practical test,you threw your answer sheet at me across the table,cos i was clueless as usual,and it lended on the floor with a smack.the teacher was too blur to notice hah but yeah scared the shit out of me.
i will never forget all the calls i make to you whenever i feel like crap/when i am fuming.
then you will just listen to me go on and on,till i feel better.
there's so so much i want to say,but nahhh not here
so i've got 5 words for you,
i love you hell much.

and i shall see you tomorrow :)
hehehe hope you like my present,its damn kawaii,handmade okayyy lol

alright guys,popsy is fuming,gotta go.
goodnight world.

x

linger,

2009-07-03T01:00:00.000-07:00

blogger is pissing the daylights out of me it refuses to let me upload my pictures
am too lazy to use photobucket plus not to mention,i am a noob at all this computer crap(dont laugh)

well,over the week,things happened and it shocked me,overly for a while,i must admit.
cherish,treasure.
only knew you as a primary school busmate,
but i am hoping wherever y'go,it will be a nice place.

mhmmm so school just started,and i am feeling the pressure already.
subjects are suffocating me,i dont understand anything.why why why zzz
plus,the auditions are coming up and i am not sure if i want to go.
not prepared,i've forgotten everything and and and not to mention,i have been binging lately
dammit.got.to.stop.
sigh ok i've got to go drown myself in dance vcds
dance is tonight and i have forgotten everything.
best.lets just cross my fingers i dont get muscle cramps

bye all,stay loving and have a nice weekend
cant wait for C's day heheh ^^

x

that man in the mirror

2009-06-29T03:10:00.000-07:00

okay okay i know i am a lil too slow and you guys must have seen this everywhere
but yeah,bear with me,yes?

thanks to mtv and the newspapers,i've gotten all nostalgic.
so,i am still kinda shocked over michael jackson's death
that guy is a legend,boyy can he sing and dance
i still remember in primary school going over to brenda's house,a group of us,watching michael jackson on screen,and we would start singing along,and somehow,my friends would start the dancing along to thriller hahahaha.
damn,those were the days.
RIP MJ,i am gonna miss that bootyshaking.
plus,i think bimb made sense.its rather sad how ppl only started to appreciate him after his death.

well anyway,today me and stef started singing his songs in class and she kept doing the oww part hahaha
shit it gave me laughters.

well,anyway besides that today was good to be back with my bitches
but, shit cropped up and yeah that resulted in s having to take in my load of crap plus sleeping sessions
whats real fake true false.anyway i think i should start barking.i dont feel good,and after somemore of that load plus flu syptoms and a burning throat,i feel even worse.
i think i'm in need of a reality check.
keep it in keep it in keep it in.

x

its getting cold in here

2009-06-27T23:04:00.000-07:00

school's starting tomorrow

i am pouting for the 158697979th time

i just started on my homework

i just realised that lessons are gonna end at 3.45 tmr

i dont want to have to face assholes i dont wanna i dont wanna

i think i am down with flu or something urgh feel horrible

sigh the feeling is coming back

and not to mention,the low self-esteem shit is setting in again

what are you doing what are you doing what are you doing what are you doing what are you doing what are you doing what are you doing _\_

gah screw myself lol

bye all gonna go find my therapy

lets all start trying to love school,shall we?

ha ha ha

bye

fickle pickle

2009-06-25T06:33:00.000-07:00

-snatches the camera out of my hands and points-
HAHAHAHA ^^v

"ehhh the picture so prettyyy tag me this on yr fb -laughs-"

despite the times you point the finger at me,scream %^*^(**&*&* at me,throw me on your bed and pounce on top of me,laugh like hee ho hee ho when you get crazy,when you give me all those talks that you yrself know i aint listening hehe ^^,and whenever you pinch my butt,and lifting up my skirt infront of millliiiiions of people _/_
haha not to mention,always getting us lost wherever we go huh,and getting off and the wrong bus stops and having to take the sbs bus back.

so yeah you suck seah yirou,but i love you lah alright.queen of fattylandxzxzxz.

so the teacher called in the morning,and laughed at me cos i sounded screwed,well thats cos she woke me up from lala land zz.

anywayyy my day was tiring,out with fat,then had cluster outing( thankyou rachel i think you are awesome and i love your hugs),followed by a mad rush to chem.

i thought i was down with H1N1 thanks to my momsy lol.

school's starting danggg.

gotta start with my pile of homework whoopee

dreams

2009-06-24T01:27:00.000-07:00

snuck out early crossing my fingers pops wouldnt call back.

well,he did,twice,thank gosh i was still home if not i was a dead man.

shopped,talked talked blahed blahed,walked around,caught terminator salvation,

then continued walking playing camwhoring talking

wanted to drag pee out to play lan haha but guess she couldnt make it :(

plussss,i had a horrible craving.

was so tempted to go all the way down,just to take it from -

but the darn asswipe couldnt make it $#&%^*^($%

noww,i am still craving for it dammit

dont know whats with me lol

hmm anywayyyz,the day was simple,night was simple,we played along the river and sang to a few familiar old songs from the club next door,then mrted home around 11?

yeahhh the hols is coming to an end and i'm feeling the pressure already.

have not completed even half of my hw,boy am i going to have a good start in school

bet dogs are gonna run after me and bite me in the ass once again,nothing new sigh

yet,gotta say,despite the rollercoaster ride,i think things are gonna get better?

i hope.really,i am.

cos it sucks to feel empty and hollow once again,i bet everyone of you thinks so too

alright that was a heavy post,

mum is getting all naggy on me again

gonna head out bye

definition please

2009-06-21T19:38:00.000-07:00

B's and N's msg:
www.channelnewsasia.com/singapore/index.htm
vote for extended holidays if you have better senses than the 994 people who wanted to go back to school as scheduled.no offence man,but i bet 3/4 of them were either parents and the 1/4 were just pricks.

extend the damn holidays extend the damn holidays extend the damn holidays extend the damn holidays extend the damn holidays extend the damn holidays extend extend extend it grr grrr grrr
hahah okay that sounds perverse.

on a side note,i realised that everytime i watch my drama serials,i get brainwashed.
this is bad
anyway,flingalingling?
messed up huh up up up down down left right goes the rollercoaster ride
lol i think only C gets what i mean ;)
no and dont say anything on my tagboard when you see this hahahaha.
loveyouforevermore seeyou tmr xxx

laterrr.

x

12345678910

2009-06-19T01:48:00.000-07:00

need directions,yes,tell me would you?

sometimes karma comes back and bite you in your butt.

met c in the morning.thank you dear for hearing me whine bitch lalala.

anywayy,am in a better mood now,cos ~ and i know c is gonna say i suck :>

need directions.

need to have a better functioning brain

need to do my major pile of homework

need to think of a plan as to how i am gonna to go to the party

need to think less

need to eat less

need to get it right

need to stop,or maybe,not

hahaha i dont get myself either.

alright am off to watch my drama serials.

my ass better be out on the streets on tuesday.i waaaant to go.

bye all have a happy weekend.

so,where are you?

2009-06-16T02:55:00.000-07:00

have you ever?
yes i have.many many times.
y'know,sometimes temptation just manages to kicks in,and you dont really know how to deal with it.

hmm on a side note,have been a pretty good daughter these few days,going to my couzy's house and getting tutored.Fyi,Val is a million times better than that lard in school,no offence,i hate that pig.
anyway,most prolly gonna meet S tmr ;D
a few nights before,kept suaning me,
but got to thank you for hearing me blahblah,and making me laugh like a bitch and rolling all over the place infront of my mama.
ni guuu kok kok kokkkk.wtf hahaha.

weeell,so what do you say?i really dont know what i am thinking either.
alright dears gonna head off,
stay happy all :>

x

she've got eyes like the bluest skies

2009-06-14T02:33:00.000-07:00

xiaowei

Rtan

sarah pui

was going through sports day pictures.
i miss screaming w/o any reason,going all crazy with my bitches,screaming even more,laughing over P's shaking of butts,the dance that stef choreographed for the cheerleaders.it was awesome ,steffxzxz love :>
well,i need to scream now.very badly.
i want to scold you,punch you till i am contented.
pui when i see you,the first thing imma gonna do when school reopens,is hug you.i miss you,i need my pillow :( the damn school better not change the emath class you have with me :(

so maybe,i saw something i knew i shouldnt have seen.
shouldnt shouldnt have bothered to go there.
so,i was being ignorant,kpo,hands itchy.
dammit.
well,though its the hundredth and millionth time i am going to say this,i decided.
this time,its gonna work out,really,i promise myself.

sat, went to a flea then spent my afternoon/night at the Farmer's house.C i am going to miss you when you go off to california.we played drinking games and werent allowed to use the loo.
met S today.laughed over bimbo yew's horrible handwriting.B CAN YOU EVEN READ YR OWN WS? i swear i saw " sluts" on yr paper that S was copying.laughed laughed,and got chased off by some librarian/guard cos we were in some place we shouldnt have been in,ridiculous -.-

so that was my two days spent.
doubt i will be able to make it for D's party at sentosa tmr night damnn.thanks to my mum,who is pissed that there are other sec4 girls are doing 20 compres whereas according to her,i only bother about painting my nails,and having fun zzz. not true.
D i am sorry,yes yes you got my love and lagsana hahaha xx

alright i am done,
later guys.

x

meow.

2009-06-10T07:31:00.000-07:00

so this is why we like to build that metal wall around us.

so this is why we pretend

so this is why you will always be such a never-changing dick

i dont see why we should dedicate such posts to such people anymore.

true colours,such ugly colours.

shall stop here,cos i wanted this in the first place,and it has been proven correct time and time again huh :)

ahh we will get over it,we always do.

anywayyy caught a movie today with S,met K J B,S's friends,Dance Subaru,and boyyy was the girl hot.

life's unfair i want to starve myself.

so am gonna go drown my irritation in my own little way now.

balcony+stars+cereal

goodnight all,stay loving.

Vaunt

2009-06-08T04:33:00.000-07:00

Awesome music,danced danced mashed mashed.

Vaunt was good,except for the many pervs,horny fugs,and the embarrassing chinese pickup line.

bumped into many familiar faces,tess huh who was the first one to squeeze my butt.

i nearly died thinking it was some perv lol.

ohh saw my tuition friend haha cool

but BBB where the hell were you,i only saw your friend >:(

yes,and must thank the C's guyfriend,who was like helping us get through the crowd the whole time and even treated us to an entire jug of coke.

cabbed back at 4plus am and by the time we reached back,we had 1hour30 mins left before leaving to school.D and D slept while me and S played with the com

and i must say i am rather heartbrokened.why are you not gay.why why why.

hmm slept for 45mins.

and dragged my butt to school with D.

spent the entire day in emath lesson dying.i swear every 5 mins my head would reach the table and i would have to struggle pulling myself up.

bimb was having trouble with her head too lol.

ahhh anyway,Vaunt was awesome,danced till i couldnt think about any other shit,so was good was good ^^

even picked up new techniques.ha ha ha ha.

alright thats all for now.

need.sleep.need.sleep.

skin and bones

2009-06-06T05:45:00.000-07:00

saw joey today and he was an asswipe/kpo as usual :>

gonna be out tomorrow,Vaunt then crashing at D's house and school the next day.
B I AM GONNA COME FIND YOU lol .
boy am i going to have fun in emath lesson on monday.
hehe anyway cant wait to get to leave these gates of hell tmr ^^

alright girls and boys may you all have a sweet night.
gonna go pack my stuff and pacify the old guy.
bro is out again walking along the streets of orchard,he sucks hardcore.

later

x

always did

2009-06-04T09:16:00.000-07:00

facebook,

Eunice completed the quiz "Which girl from Gossip Girl are you?" with the result Serena van der Woodsen.

Queen S herself. You wear your heart on your sleeve and can be a little naive. No matter what you do, you would never intentionally hurt anyone--unless they severely piss you off, that is. You're always willing to stand up for your loved ones. Despite the goody-two-shoes appearance, you're a bad girl at heart. You aren't afraid to get crazy and you love to have a good time. People admire your optimistic outlook on life. You have a kickass closet full of deep v-neck dresses, tight jeans, leather jackets and the hottest (and of course, most expensive) boots. Unfortunately, you fall for guys who leave you for stupid reasons. You deserve an amazing guy. .

Eunice completed the quiz "Which Guy from Gossip Girl would be your boyfriend?" with the result Nate Archibald.

You attract the "boy next door". You would be good with Nate Archibald. You are comfortable around him and have always been best friends. You knew that you were destined to be together because of his good looks, charm, and all of that money isn't so bad either. Nate treats you like the princess you are. Even though he may have a few flaws, he knows that you bring out the best in him. .

fun stuff,like i said.

really want to get the dvd. chace crawford ftw ^^

okay i dont want to sound obsessed,but he's is cute huh dont deny it ;>

its late,gonna head off to bed.

sleep it off

've got to stop sounding like i am gonna die and drown in a pool of self pity

can do much better than this.

you can,i can,we can.

hey ho,lets go,

night.

i am transparent.

2009-06-03T08:48:00.000-07:00

think i am in need for some direction.

performed today,saw W,was super shocked but happy.

oh and saw a _ look-alike which freaked me out cos the person seriously looked and acted like _

sigh i miss _ ,yes i suck,cant stand myself either.

on a side note,managed to get my parents consent to staying over at D's house on 7th hehehe

lets just hope i dont get busted for __ ^^

was msging P earlier on.

this totally makes sense, S'poreans= stressed up social rejects.

yes? i hate sec4 life.i hate barking dogs,screeching chickens,yes you lard.i hate feeling dumb.

i dont even know where am i going now.

ohwell,am gonna go facebooking,

the quizes are getting me hooked.

apparently i am Serena van der Woodsen,and i am going to marry Nate Archibald.

i like.very,much.

love nate,you are so cute :>

12:46

2009-06-01T07:16:00.000-07:00

favourite cousin ftw.
i was a duck.

special girls,miss the times when we only had barbie,imagination games and marrying rich husbands on our minds.

when i was,

1-5years old:my brother was a skinny bamboo,i was a ball of fat.
6-9years old: i got really tall for my age,skinny at a point of time and my bro got super fat
now,he is just nice,i am a ball of fat once again.

well i spent a good one hour plus plus uploading all this.
thats why i hate high tech stuff.they somehow always fails you.
the fucky thingthum was pissing the living daylights outta me D:<

oh well,for good ol time's sake.

do not kill me brother.
i look equally/even much horrendously disgustingly fat.

lol goodnight guys,
out tmr,movie after lit whoopee.

x

can you see me?

2009-05-31T08:54:00.000-07:00

DDD's house,most came.
ate ate played ate sang karaoke and a car ride home in the night.
dont know why,but suddenly am missing the old times.
remember barbie,imagination games and the talking sessions about any and everything?
we were chilidsh,immature and happy.
sounds stupid,but i miss you anyway just so you know.

anyway right now,i am bored to the max.
its 1:03 ,and i dont know what am i doing.
empty empty empty.
have been getting the urge to run out of the door/jump out from my window
and leaving this place.
dont get whats with all this mixed up confusion.
so,i am not happy with the old guy.
S told me something today in subway and i feel rather worried about _
got my certification and stuff today and somehow i felt like i made the wrong choice.again.

sigh guess today is one of those days huh.
stupid,fat,ugly,sleepy,nostalgic.
what a horrible combination.irks me.

i miss F,D,N.

chinese O's tmr,
am rather relieved mine's long over,cos i would not have survived a take-two.
gonna sleep in,eat beancurd,curl up on my sofa watching my soapies and maybe out?depends.
all the best guys :>

later.

x

covet

2009-05-29T07:45:00.000-07:00

amusing candid.
bell rang,
we were all ready and set to go byebye lol.

spent my week :

sleeping in hcl lessons(cos the normal chinese girls had intensive,so we were to have lessons too. worse week ever),talking cock with chng,she threw her bottle at my face and it hurt like ^*@&(&^& but i forgive you lah xo i bet i irritated the shit outta her haha so fun,whack here there everywhere :) hmm ate alot of fats.cried during a particular screening of some movie in school (it got to me lol) ate somemore,got caught by a certain mad dog for my pinafore on the second last day.irritated the hell out of me cos i did not want to get into more shit with the teachers.i am sick of it.the judging and all that.chng says i am unlucky.but how unlucky can i get already >:(

alright so thats my week.if you managed to read all that,good for you.
have been having issues with myself lately sigh why.

okay gotta stop thinking so much.
about you(no not you or whoever),about this,about that,about me,about results(my L1R5 is crazy man my dad's gonna burst a vessel)

goodnight all.
its the june holidays,like finally
so study hard,and play hard all.
cant wait to see the longtime mates tomorrow,deborah david and daniel's house.
Isabel,nicccc,debbb :>

sweet dreams.

x

if a golden train came to take you away would you go or would you stay.

2009-05-25T19:51:00.001-07:00

new year's with fattiest.

had some war going on at night,i wanted to rip someone's face out and i swear i was burning.

do not really want to elaborate,cos it will merely be an angsty post.no no i dont want that.

anyway i was glad i finally could get it off my chest.

so i am home,missing school.

stupid war,at least something good came out of it.

was supposed to meet chng later for lunch but she cant make it sianxzx :(

shall prolly hole up in my room then,hibernating,sounds good :>

hallucinations are officially killing me.

flutters,butterflies,stomach twisting and turning.

i am crazy.

school's a bore,spent my ytd sleeping on my bag,getting patches on my face,and ended up laughing with chng over an ant at toapayoh.

thank god for today.

goodbye maties,am off for a good dosage of gossip girl and cereal.

am chanting,life's good life's good with/w/o you with/w/o you.

your sucha dickhead. ^^V

ps, sharon i like the justin nozuka song you wrote on my hand thq :D

physics,

2009-05-23T06:02:00.000-07:00

open the fridge & put

my heart on a plate.

I'm just as you left

me,and i taste even better

leftover

Palefury,why did you leave me?

You're prickly

in the morning.So

prickly.

This isnt a cooking show

This isnt chemistry or geography.

Its physics.Pure physics,

I am falling fast & faster still.

So fall with me.Fall down with me.

And stay.

-GG

so days are good.'ve been going out shopping,therapy and all.

flea was cool bought stuff,and bumped into a few familiar faces.

i am on a lookout for prom stuff(i know its damn early)hehe but gives me more excuse to shop ^^

on a side note.

i.cant.effing.wait.for.june.

i am gonna study.cannot afford to get that disgusting CBCBCBF grades.my L1R5 cant make to ite even.even i am starting to think i am hopeless now zzz.

but,i will def not forget about my rest :>

the party?i dont know,waiting for the rest.need a plan so my mum wont think i am gonna go get raped/molested.

B was telling me in tuition bout it,going too i think.i go there,we settle.one on one COME LAHHHH hahahah.stupid asswipe.

i want stayovers.hahaha theres more behind it.

frolick at night (i want),L4D till morning,thats what chng said.lol.

ahh praying that my mama loves me enough ;D

laterr.

what do you call this?

2009-05-19T07:23:00.000-07:00

i am officially hooked,

read two books in a day.finished the third one the next day.

not to mention,gossip girl is totally the best way to forget all your miseries.
this dearies,includes the getting back of my grades :)

so i get back my paper,pissified,demoralised,crashed,and _____(fill in the blank,with whatever you call upset)

then turn back to read the book

the next minute you know,i am laughing and sniggering to myself cos of the content in the book.

according to bimb,its contentless.and to some,its a bitchified book.

but thats what i like about it.doesnt require the usage of brain cells and its amusing in a way.go me :)

everyday's getting worse,i remembered going over to chng's house one day and screaming my ass off due to _o.o__ hahahahaha. yay chng agrees too ^^V
zahhhhh dammit was hyperventilating all the way home.
oh yes,and faith was being such a cutie pie as usual ;D

my ex tuition teacher added me on fb.
gave me a pleasant surprise cos i missed her,and she is in Italy with her Italian husband and her cows chickens dogs.(sounds cool huh)
seeing the pictures totally drives me jealous.

i want to migrate. n o w.

alright,gonna head off.
tomorrow's gonna be quite..hmm. hah.
results,__ and results C B C B,maybe D E F soon and ___.
sigh nvm,chng's gonna go with me and get my books.
i am gonna need much therapy.

may you all have an awesome night.

p.s pea uploaded the surprise thingy on facebook and omg haha i acted like i had a screw loose in my head.i guess thats when you get a bloody giftcard for topshop = shopping retail retail whoo hehe ^^ lol i love you guys lah okay thank you xxx

x

purest

2009-05-17T07:02:00.000-07:00

spent saturday out,with fatty.

we shopped from 1plus all the way to 9pm? power haha

dinner at haji.cocktails,bacardi,cosmo ^(&(*&%&^(.damn so tempting,the boss couldnt care less anyway

so we mrted home.thank you fatty for travelling back to fareast in the night again just to get my shorts,sorry,lub you :P

sunday found me at sentosa.S drove up to tanjong beach.

spent the day lying on the mat with a beach towel over my face and the wind blowing at me ^^ overspent on food and drinks as usual.

homed around evening,and i am beat.sigh.

i need more to get more gossip girl books i am done with the two,gonna head down to get more soon cant wait 8)

everything else can screw off.

i likey.

what cheer,my love?

2009-05-14T07:06:00.000-07:00

he is one hell of a guy i must say :)

CRYSTAL JING JING i owe you a note and a visit.love you lah :)

foursome,since primary two we have been stuck with the same cca.i still remember everything in the past.oh man,nostalgia.

find me,find me not.

it was one heck of a journey,darn i miss you.

rest of the photos will be up some other time cos blogger is being an asswipe and i look gross.

last paper heheh -throws confetti-

so i cancelled tuition last minute,

rushed home bathed changed and out out out
went to PS,walked around bought shit
walked to fareast
then headed back,and caught Angels and Demons.awesome.kept us in our seats and was biting my fingers half the time lol.
around evening and headed off to play L4D at some lan shop.lol cheap thrills.and i must admit i suck.
trained to vivo,shopped around,subwayed.

and home i went around 9 plusish,cos i decided i need to keep thy father happy so that i can leave the house more often whoo see mama i aint making trouble for him :>

anyway,on a side note,i realised i started tehing again,not good nope nope.

poor S and H has to take my nonsense.sigh but how.i miss,and i am gonna miss

this sucks.urgh okay i am gonna go drown myself in Gossip Girl.

hardcore catcing up reading, i borrowed three books already :B

we like to fantasize dont we? :) laterr.

girl,you are like the summer rain.

2009-05-12T04:08:00.000-07:00

popsy should get a dog instead of me.
maybe a portable chiwawa where he can bring about everywhere ,and she ought to have a branded pink leather leash in my opinion.
if you are smart you will get what i mean.
anyway that left mum laughing lol.

"children are like caterpillars they eat and they sleep.then when they mature,they get wrapped up into a cocoon where it gets dark.They are trapped by themselves and they are to grow and mature in that condition.then one fine day,they will breakfree from the cocoon,in the form of a stunningly beautiful butterfly"

i realised M is getting more meaningful each day ha ha.
oh and i just found out,i am gonna be stuck with my dad for 5days while my mum is gonna go for somethingy.
thats after my exams.
boy ol boy i bet i am gonna give him a heart attack or maybe two ^^

late nights,books,mobile,ipod,feeling the shittiest of shits,coffee stains,
so if everybody has a heart then,how about me?

haha i am okay yes yes this aint some emo-fied post.
life's gonna get better.yep definately,after midyr's= retail,dinner,party party party hehehe.

i am gonna be a butterfly how bout you :>

x

myttm

2009-05-07T22:50:00.000-07:00

guzheng pictures will be up soon soon promise. thanks D for the picture haha you pee :>

anyway,midyear's aint over but thank god for fridays so that i can finally breathe.

these few nights have been horrible,one look at me and you know it all.

i hate exams.

you walk into the freezing hall,just to sit down for how many hours,stare and be dumb,then feel like a major loser and go home to continue studying.

the next day,the same cycle repeats.

this week has been a major massacre of brain cells plus whatever dignity i have on my smartness.

haha am i even making sense -..-

anyway,i missed out on a lot of stuff and its building up in me how how how no more this sucks.

life's not treating me too well.

anyway am still contemplating if i should go to the flea with g.lover and maybe yirou?

studies or flea

sigh alright gonna go and tackle the amath book.bye.

for you,

2009-05-01T09:19:00.000-07:00

the girls in guzheng tuan,always loved hating guzheng.

we hated it for a reason,and we loved it for a even better reason.

dammit,this is so sad.

after 8 years of guzheng,i am finally stepping down.

no more lessons,no more no more at all.

its sad.i am going to miss bitching about guzheng,complaining about everything.

the concert went well.last time i performed.and it was also the last time many others performed too.

people teared,people cried.

i guess we are all gonna miss our ccas.

honestly,in sec school,i do not see a single teacher i will be missing.whores asses, i am sorry.

surprisingly,the only teacher i see worth me coming back for to visit w/o any fail,will be my conductor.

yeah.the guy who whacked me on the head with his bare hands.
the guy who always whacked my hands.
the guy who made me pull my ears standing in the hot sun for 1hour45mins infront of passerbys.
the guy who spat saliva in my face whilst blasting at me.(since pri 2)
the guy who made me cry two times( i hardly cry for such reasons)
the guy who has instilled fear into every single guzheng girl's soul.

but guess what.

he taught me hell alot of stuff in life.
i have toughened up alot since i knew him.
i have been following him since primary two and i swear,i am going to miss him.

i still rmb our primary school days okay.

sigh so sad.

this sucks.

thank you to the flower givers :)

thank you jing jing for the awesome note.i owe you one xx

haha even saw the church peeps attend the concert.

cass bren pui vanna so many so many others came to watch.

BUT SEAH YIROU WHERE WERE YOU.MY LAST PERFORMANCE OKAY ZAHHH :(

haha anyway,concert ended late,and the foursome went for supper.

homed around 12 in the night.

sigh,this is so sad.

i cant even concentrate on anything.

screw midyears ha ha ha.

i miss guzheng,i miss b-e :(

life's not fair. not fair at all.

alright,pictures will be up some other time.i have a load of them.

goodnight all.

you're beautiful.

2009-04-26T02:11:00.000-07:00

gotta start studying,and start passing the subjects eunice.

its pressurising and i hate the education system.i hate not knowing and understanding anything.we all want to feel good about ourselves in all aspects,dont we?

i want to leave S'pore,so so so so badly.maybe i should try and persuade my parents.i am so jealous of R and J and the many others who will be studying overseas. i will miss them like darn.

oh yes,maybe i should go on hiatus from the cyber world too,like the many others.

need to buck up.

hopefully when i get back,my mind will be clearer,and things would turn out better,for a change.

lets hope so huh.goodbye for now dear readers.

let's see how long i can survive without the computer and maybe,just maybe,my handphone too.

haaah fat hope eunice.

i know i suck.

this is gonna be long,

2009-04-21T04:24:00.000-07:00

thank you dear bitches.

the box i carried around.i am feeling happy so heck the unglams.

just got to rmb.STOP POUTING.i look like an asshole.

you play with fire too?

thank you all for the birthday wishes,on facebook and in school and textmessages,calls,

the gifts and so on.

thank you to my dear assholes for the bday present that boy,is gonna make me fat.(you know who you guys are) oh and the steam cake!

thank you (in no order, koo deb pea lum)

thank you to whoever else who wished me

i love you all.

i nearly forgot my bday.when the class suddenly burst out of nowhere singing happy birthday,

screaming,i nearly wanted to join in the fun,and i was thinking who's birthday was it -..-

hmm so i am 16.

no need to try and sneak into cinemas for nc16 movies anymore haah there goes the thrilll.

oh not to mention,my birthday is real jinxed

R i miss you as my partner get well soon :( remember,carebear!

so happy birthday hitler,

my condolenses to the nicholl highway collasping and the many who suffered on this day,

and happy birthday me.

well so that was on the 20th.

today,was SYF.

atmosphere was super tense.

expectations were to be met,and we all didnt want break the chain of Gold with Honours.

nearly freaked out,we realised that we passed the time limit cos we could get disqualified or some shit.

but in the end,it all worked out.

everybody were holding each others hands,and when they announced our results,

you would see a whole bunch of girls screaming llike assholes and punching the air,singing our good ol victory song.

i swear,its a relief.

xinmin got GWH too!

yay go BBBB i love you :D

sorry for smacking your ass \^^/

we were like cheering for xinmin nyjc northbrook and bartley.

god,they have all improved awesome :)

so anyway,

everything worked out.

my last competition,after so many months of horrible practices,we got what we want.

we were damn happy.went crazy all the way back to school.

i still am smiling :)

go PL GUZHENG TUAN hehe though i hardly ever ever say this about guzheng,

swear its once in a lifetime.

so i can finally concentrate on my midyears, and my final grading for dance in NAFA.

load of shit off my back and i am glad all the hard work paid off.

i must admit,not all shit is cleared,but i guess we all got to start trying to love life,no matter how shittified it may be.

xxxx

picking up

2009-04-17T06:34:00.000-07:00

so i was looking through the old school magazine,and guess what i found :)

ASH AND GOH
MEL AND LUM

rach goh you were so cute,i miss you :(

and this totally shows how long i have been stuck to this damn instrument.
lol sad life.

did not have a good day.okay infact,i didnt have a single good day this week.

had a sudden spotcheck yadayada.conclusion: i went for a shopping spree in at the prefect booth.
cant be bothered to elaborate.like bimb said,we ought to make them a lil happier once in awhile :)

as for today,dear ball called me out infront of the whole class and picked at me from head to toe.
ears,uniform,socks shoe.
my hair was awesome hehehe so proud of myself so i shall claim the credit ^^
she was even telling everybody the colour of my shoe. ''not white,but greyyy.'' (its that a school rule too?)
best thing,was that,it ended off at a ''its not a personal thing''
mhmm.maybe i am getting abit to touchy over her calling me out.but i mean if you were me how would you feel.
riceball at you.
pea tells me its my face.maybe i should just go for plastic surgery or smtg huh.

yes,so besides that,i overall spent the day getting wrong answers to every single maths question i did.sang ''hey jude'' and changed the lyrics cos i was feeling rather sad and pissed off at myself.
it sucks,when you are always not getting things right in life.
never went well for me.how bout you?

i dont know what i can do anymore to salvage plenty of issues,but i guess for my academics,its gonna be nescafe and the books.

i will try my best.

x

what they see,

2009-04-15T00:17:00.000-07:00

look at my bangs and yirou hahahahaha.

chnggg get well soon you crippled :>

i spent sunday walking from clarke quay to marina,cityhall area with stephanie,

running across roads with an umbrella.

we followed the sound of music,oh yeah not to forget the man with the eastpak bag.

didnt manage to find the wanted destination,lol and in the end,landed up spending 18 bucks on tomyam noodles and some drink.

the drizzling rain was a bitch swear.kept poking her with my umbrella -.-

hmm so yes,

cant really remember much.

except that today we had 2.4 run in the morning and i spent the whole day after that,walking and looking like a crippled zombie.

my hips hurt so darn bad dont ask me why lol.

oh oh and and,

HAPPY SWEET SIXTEEN BRENDA

known you in primary school

i still remember the valentine day's card you gave me which got confiscated by some ball,so random i know.lol.

straighforward,but you know i am working on it yesss :)

anyway,i owe you a present.

i forgive you for all the fingers you have pointed to me,and for calling me names -.-

though we may not be the closest closest,but you know that i love you.

may you have an awesome day.

alright.i gotta rush out of the house now.

late late late.

shall upload something i found the next time round.

boy ol boy,wonder what happened to me along the way.hahh.

what makes you,you.

2009-04-11T06:53:00.000-07:00

okay okay shit i gotta make a quick post.

observed how pickpockets try to steal old peoples stuff on the bus at night around geylang area. god,we were so agitated so we made all those stifling wtf noises till one realised.and the best thing was that the other guy,was using a knife to cut a hole in the back pocket and front pocket of an old man,and yet the old man didnt know.wtf.thank goodness both of them were lousy and couldnt get anything.seriously it left us gaping and paranoid.
had a war on at night.
hmm went to the flea today,bumped into many familiar faces.shopped around,got caught in the rain.thank you herman for sheltering us :) then my scandals broke on the way home,so i took of them off,and walked out of the mrt lift,barefooted,and continued walking all the way home,in the rain.and i dont know why but my feet felt good actually.in the grass,mud and water.
caught up with old time friends at night,had dinner and i am home.

so yes,thats all for now.i've got mountains of things to do and handle.

dad's an ass so yes.goodnight.

gonna throw it away.

2009-04-08T07:22:00.000-07:00

aunty turned up at my house carpark one night and shocked me.it was hilarious,especially with me in my room screaming down at the carpark cos my phone suddenly conked out on me.it was like hide and seek.

koo found something really interesting in the school's library and showed it to me.so,there were like two mad girls at the back of the library screaming away giggling profusely.camera snapping away man LOL.

okay but after what just happened,i dont find point two amusing anymore.and sorry if this is gonna sound crude and brash.

i hate people who lie.thats for starters.

then next,i hate assholes like you. _/_

why say such things that you never ever meant.why waste your breath?i wondered if you ever truly searched deep deep down into your own heart and search your conscience.maybe we are just artifacts of your life.to remove when unwanted.yes?

i thought i was angry.but no,come to think of it.

its more of a disappointment rather than fury.i thought i was gonna burst but nah i guess i will survive.from now onwards,i will change my perception that all people can change,and maybe see th end results before ever concluding.

well at least there was a smart decision made before it.i shall keep reminding that to myself.

and dear you,if you ever see this,maybe it would spark off a little something in yourself.

stay.fucking.far.away.from.me. (dont get the wrong impression okay this isnt directed to any close friend or whoever,i love you all.)

so yes,now B's trying to persuade me to attend some party but no no no.

cannot :(

alright goodnight all.

touch.

2009-04-05T01:43:00.000-07:00

so i think we all should start being thankful.

ha ha ha so ironic

had family renuion dinner

an aunty gave me a million dollar handshake,and another gave me a coach product.

my jaw dropped,like seriously,the minute i saw the dustbag that imprinted those words on it.

goshh.the dustbag is actually nicer than the wrislet ha shit i sound so spoilt,but its okay i like both :D

i realised i wont be having a life in the near future till i start passing subjects and jumping from C,D,Es to As and more As.

sigh i am caged up already,so sad.

anyway,got wet today,tied garbage bags to h and a's feet and ran to the bus stop so amusing i tell you :)

mhmm so school's starting tomorrow,havent completed anything.

i am way too tired and seriously,i feel rather screwed in every way one can be now.

no.not because of that or that.enough of it.

i need therapy.now.okay gonna go find it heh ^^

gudbai.

why.

2009-04-03T08:32:00.000-07:00

caught this earlier in the week.

bimbotic show yes but its kinda cute and romantic at the same time,so three thumbs up :)

was goo goo gah-ing over hugh dancy.

caught it with p.

''i thought she was your girlfriend''

''no she isnt you''

\^^/

hmm anyway this week ended horridly.

got really angry in the day due to some ball that is cock in the eye.

biased and judgemental.a pain in the ass.not mine,everybody's.

why cant you just leave me alone.i stay away from you and you stay away from me likewise.i really cant wait for graduation.so gonna throw riceballs at you the minute i step out of the school gates. >:(

besides that,

some building around bugis caught fire and it was near NAFA so after dance witnessed some bits and pieces.
i got a darn zit on my cheek.and it looks like a mosquito bite.

yes so anyway tomorrow's gonna be draining but i am looking forward to frolick :>

dad's pissing so i guess thats goodnight all sweet dreams sleep tight.

massive massive

2009-03-28T01:44:00.000-07:00

guess who won champion house for the small ones.

committee bitches of all colour -inserts heart-

mei mei :)

CASS THE MASCOT.HAHA A FOR ASSHOLE :D lub you lah flatface.

bimb broke the pail.

queen of fattyland.

do you feel hot too?

stephanie!

so short :(

puipui.mine all mine ;D

Tess :D
MALMIN.
sianling!
juliaaa.

kelly and milo :)

pweneees ;}

look who we bumped into,and she didnt recognise me on the track in the starting :(

j and koo.chng betrayed her house haha love you!

kh and her green tea :)

RACH TANpea toh!

xw :)

BIMBO YEW

first time i pinned up my fringe for a very very long time.explains why i look so stupid in the pics :( koh will be so proud of me i swear.

first time i ran right infront during mass race.

first time i actually opened my mouth to cheer so hard for LEE.

first time i actually found sports day fun.

there's a first time to everything huh :)

well Lee house got 2nd for cheer comp,pri school champ house and 2nd in overall championship house.we tied with archer.

so we totally.aint.loser.house.anymore.to hell with the comments :P

alot of people said that our mass cheer plus dance was really good,so yay,am happy to the core :)

well so school starts tmr.am not am not looking forward to the draining droning lessons

and movie with p tmr after school i hope heh ^^

on a side note,i am not happy.not happy at all with you and you,but forget it.

its always like that no?

mhhmm anyway rest well all,i sense a long week ahead :(

its a riddle,

2009-03-26T07:32:00.000-07:00

so i havent updated in like days,fingers were feeling lazy and moodswings were on still on actually.haah.

school,the usual boring yawn yawn,dance prac followed by guzheng then yay its over and runs home.

hmm anyway,tomorrow's the big day!

i know its funny how i used to hate green,my house and now i actually became a patriot overnight.GO LEE :D

lets win something back and prove that we aint (L) LEE,if you catch my drift.

super excited hur hur.

gonna meet kh and the others for breakfast and its off to the stadium.

plus plus,pea bought mars bars in advance ^^V

cant wait,sheralyn's gonna betray her house to sit at ours lol.

plus,i want to watch confessions of a shopaholic,yes yes pea lets go watch it tmr!

alright shall end here,goodnight all.

lets all go green shall we?

dilemma

2009-03-21T23:39:00.000-07:00

chew chew snap snap laugh.

i dont know why.why?

yes,what would you do?

love hate love hate tug of war.

i am gonna go make pancakes now and let all the fats coagulate my arteries mind body heart.

go me.

anyway,
dear you,

you nearly scared me okay.

so if you are reading this,

i am always here,you know that i am just a call away!

and even if i cant do anything to help you,i will be glad enough to listen in,cos that's what i am for right?

anybody who stresses you,i will bite them.

love you a million you know that xx

cheek to cheek

2009-03-21T07:23:00.000-07:00

yirou's stockings from topshop were sold out.

headed to haji.

the graphic tee i wanted was sold out.

ran in the rain

left me cold and shivering all the way back to the mall.

was eyeing on a top,nearly got it but left the shop for a short while.

when i finally decided to purchase it,the shop owner realised the top got stolen during the 5-1o mins we were gone and when he left the shop.

lol this is hell amusing.

i bet my mum was behind all this,praying that i wont overspent again.

left us frustrated but ohwell next time i guess :(

mhmm gotta go figure out how to use ace-learning.so stupid.i hate online techy stuff.

sigh,dad's irritated again.

hold it in yes.

the hols are over and i am still deprived of my retail therapy sessions.

i miss people i miss hell lot of stuff.

but i guess its always like that right.sucks yes all the time.

ah well.i need my sleep.slept from 7pm to 10pm

got dragged up from bed,

ate dinner,and now i am going back.

sweet dreams you.

feel

2009-03-20T05:07:00.000-07:00

we stood for 3 hours playing guzheng non-stop,sweating in an air-conditioned room.

and before that we were still practicing.

my back's a goner i am going to be a hunchback if this continues.

not happy at all,i feel like my whole holiday has been drained away.

i am missing parties dammit.

for example, today evening's ash's chalet and while they are all having fun i am stuck at home trying not to piss off the father.

plus,i miss goh wenli darn >:(

on a side note,

i hate this.i hate it.

here's to you it everything _/_

i realised that sometimes its so hard to be real.

cos we dont even know whats real anymore.

true? i dont know.i am still trying to figure that out.

gonna bathe now i stink.

byebyebye.

here's to a better weekend.

picture perfect

2009-03-18T07:32:00.000-07:00

taptap on my poddy is the bomb.

addictive and stress relieving yes yes.

well so maybe i should just come to terms with it.

you disgusting you.

and oh yes.another thing.not let the mind wander off to b.e (I KNOW YOU ARE PROUD OF ME KOO)

b e b e b e b e.

fug.

lol alright shall stop here and not confuse anybody anymore

B told me that there's some party tomorrow night dammit i want to go.

i miss shopping.i miss the coffee i miss the lights i miss the noise i miss.

sigh.

alright,gonna pig out on cereal.

its 8 am out of the house tomorrow,dance,then guzheng and chem.

yes this sucks to the max.

swings

2009-03-17T06:46:00.000-07:00

shall upload pics from the party when i get them

too lazy to elaborate everything just remembered reaching home and zonked out soon after.

anyway school has been crazy.

cheer dance in the morning and guzheng straight after that.

conductor is going kinda mad now,scores not fully memorised and sports day is next friday and the cheers/dance/dont know what else is not done.

sigh.we will survive,yes we will.

oh yeah not to forget,the parents are still super controlling.

i think i am gonna rot away soon trust me.

brain's gonna just explode.maybe it will drag my heart along as well.

i am tired,

feel like just dumping everything out of my window and heading to the bed.

not to mention,

this past few late nights i have been yearning to run out of the door just for a few hours before daylight to relieve what i used to have.

dammit i hate being a sec 4 hate it. >:(

alright i think i have teh-ed enough.

gonna go paint now ha ha.

done with that

2009-03-14T22:29:00.000-07:00

sorry yirou and koo for last minute changing plans and stuff.

sigh was on fire awhile back but i decided to heck everything.

so yeah.

for now,i just cant wait for evening,and i am out of this place for the party.

cant wait cant wait cant wait x10x10x10 to leave.

and yes i think i am in need of retail therapy.

rather badly urgh.

eunice is rather sad blahhh.

forget it huh.

sigh alright off off off.

will be back with pics and am crossing fingers that parents wont drag me back in the middle of the night

plus,i have made a mental note,not to ever let my mum go for the parents meet the teachers session in the near future.

nothing

2009-03-14T06:20:00.000-07:00

its like quicksand.
i hate the four walls.so white,so ugly.
i want street lights,coffee,parcels,friends
so maybe you should really go get me a leash,and a cage too.
oh yeah not to mention,i feel cheated.
am i?
gosh i hate this.
plus my body is really cranky today.so's my mood.
got.to.sleep.

scream somemore,just do that, _/_

x

done here

2009-03-13T07:36:00.000-07:00

parents teacher's meeting session
i expected it not to go well anyway so yeah.
screw you,you you and you.
cant believe how they can sugarcoat their words and later stab you in your back.
watch out,next term,i will make sure i put toothpicks in my eyes,and ask you so many questions just to annoy the living daylights out of you.
ha ha ha i cant wait to see how your face will screw into knotches knowing that it was you who wanted it.
and trust me,i will throw hell lot of riceballs cum fingers at you before i leave these school gates
to show you my appreciation for these past few years,and of course with a smile :)

lalala.

on a side note,i dont really care much about the march holidays considering the fact that there's guzheng every bloody day due to the competition thats the day after my birthday.
which means,i will be spending my birthday in school plucking fugly strings at unearthly hours till i can leave.
i think we aint going to do better, and when the other schools come over for the interaction thing,we will end up embarrassing ourselves :(
ahhh but i will see bel after so long yay :D

alright,so i guess thats the end of my post.
gonna get caffeine, and stay awake for the night
and its tuition tmr,meet stef,and maybe my mum too.

bz bz bz :(
dad's pissing again sigh.

x

indifference i wish

2009-03-11T07:57:00.000-07:00

so maybe if it was given away,everything would be back?

i am exhausted from a day at school boy ol boy,

i only remembered laughing like an asshole,wiping my tears away while laughing,banging my head on the table and singing random tunes during chemistry.

loud to keep me mentally awake.

it was hysterical,koo kept laughing,which made me go crazier.

and pea debb told me to stfu all the way :( lol heartbroken.

my mom used to tell me that since young,whenever i was tired,i would just act like a baby and throw tantrums,cry a river then head off to bed,sleeping soundly and waking up much happier.

this lasted till i was much older.infact,maybe i still do it.lol stupid yes i know.

on a side note.

pondering wondering.i hate it.yes i do.

no b.e today too so sad yes i miss. hahaha saw the crab though.

S jealoussss hahah i know you are gonna kill me if you see this :D

alright i know not many understand this gibberish so i shall stop here.

stupid koo is gonna leave me alone in school tomorrow you lazy ass pon pon pon :(

so aint gonna enjoy myself sigh maybe i will start my whole singing thing again.to amuse myself.

oh yeah and not to mention,i just recalled,syf competition for guzheng will be on my birthday.

FRIGGING 20th APRIL _\_ there goes my birthday sonofanasswipe.

sigh.

i feel sick.

pure

2009-03-09T03:16:00.000-07:00

school was alright,headed to bishan,missed tuition heehee ^^
too lazy to type,but i was pondering over stuff today.

stupid or smart?i am still trying to figure it out.

but i guess from the looks of it,i should have known.

yes? i always did.didnt i?

ohwell okay i am off to see hot girls heh

hibernation,changes,they both sound pretty nice to my ears now.

footprints

2009-03-08T01:12:00.000-08:00

today was one of those days when all i felt like doing was to hide in my bed,under the covers and not doing anything at all.
unfortunately,aint that lucky.dragged myself out,churched,then stoned all the way to ps met pea bought stuff and stoned all the way home with my poddy of course.
the com is throwing a tantrum,i feel..i have no idea.
tired i guess.tired,screwed and everything combined together.
i think i know why everybody wants to fly now.
or maybe i should be a snail,at least i always have a shell,no matter how smelly or slimy i am.
crazy huh

well yah.i actually am very very tempted to just pack my bags,persuade my parents into getting me an air ticket to aussy,meet longlost friends,shop,see angmohs,and overall,just leave.

ahh.but i have school tomorrow and i bet my parents will just think i am down with something.
guess i will just have to stick to my bed.
and i am considering dumping my phone.go me :)

x

why perfect

2009-03-07T04:49:00.000-08:00

thanks bimbo i want more heh ^^

hmm okay quick post and i am off for therapy.
havent been online for days,i am so proud of myself :)
welll plenty of things happened over the week,too lazy to elaborate.
have been rather caged up and secured onto a leash by the parents sigh.

anyway,far east and haji with yirou today
rushed from fareast to haji and arab street,bumped into cass and bren and now i am broke to the core,
so its no eating now i guess,gotta save
and i cant wait to get my dyes tomorrow :D
gonna meet pea to make our sports day banners for the house
so thats all,the weather has been an ass lately and i realised that i wld somehow be caught running in the rain/getting drenched almost everytime it rains.
gosh wonder how long it will take to get me sick,hope it will be soon.
yes yes hate school.

alright so goodbye may you have a merry weekend.

x

breathe

2009-03-03T05:42:00.000-08:00

i dont like being a crybaby in public.

i never liked the feeling of red and puffy eyes with people around me.

and i would always keep everything inside me till i got home then i would seek refuge in my bed and under the covers without anybody knowing.

yeah.so anyway.today was horrible,

chemistry just pissed me off too much.

felt like tearing the paper up and screwing myself.

darn.anyway thank you rachel tan,steff cass and chng.

lub you all. xx

sigh so yes.guess this term's results will totally suck to th core and parents teachers session will spell trouble for me

lard is gonna tell tales on me to my parents and i am so gonna die bigtime esp from the results i am getting.

there was a war just now with the dad.

ongoing maybe? lets wait and see when he gets home.

i guess the only thing i can do now is just suck everything in and hide under my covers.

and maybe a box of koko crunch to keep me sane.

how we hope,we get all tied up

2009-03-02T02:21:00.000-08:00

today was a stupid day.
i felt stupid,i got stupid results.

so lets see,emath lesson and we got back our results.set us off on a hysterical mode.
if you were there,you would see 2 girls.1 screaming "MY HAIRS BLUE"and having random fits now and then. lol ily ass.
and the other one laughing then tearing randomly due to laughing too hard, staring into space as she is at a loss of words.then she starts to get agitated,screams and pui slaps her :(
one's stef the other's me go figure.
then higher chinese too.
not to mention,my dictionary broke down and i was having compo,and that was after the returning of overall results too.

have you ever felt so dumb.god maybe i am currently having a self-confidence problem.but i just realised i have been rather stupid in most areas of my life.i have done stupid things,i have hoped for stupid things(still am),i have did stupid things,and last but not least,my results prove that i am mentally challenged.

i am sick and tired of getting back such ugly results,and i hate the feeling of dumbness.
the worst thing was that throughout,my mind was just drifting off to think of the wrong things that were super inappropriate.omg so it was like stupidity in action x2.

i think feeling stupid sucked me dry mentally and physically
thats why i kept filling myself with food to give me a sense of wholeness(still am actually)

ohwell i have to figure out how to open my mouth and tell the father.
as for now,shall head off for my usual therapy session with youtube music and retail.
thats all the comfort i can get before war tonight or maybe tomorrow ( still considering when to tell him)

so bye

i miss b.e why why why slap yourself eunice 8(

x

you can sit beside me when the world comes down

2009-02-28T23:31:00.000-08:00

picture spam of my friday afternoon - night and saturday night.

credits to pearlyn toh/debbie yew thankkks love love ^^

friday--->

this is why i couldnt eat.

they were meant to wear gloves

pea is crazy lol

sick shit with eyelashes and it belongs to you me him her :>

then,after cca--->

more pics from ytd

all rather unglam due to the sweating

on debbie and sharon's saturday dinner-->

there were many rude people staring at us.no manners tsk.

heck,we had fun shrilling laughing yakking phototaking laladeedee dum.

oh yes and not to mention walking in the rain at the end :D

just look at the both of us -..-happy birthday hungry girl :)

hello chng thank you for accompanying me together with xh to bugis sorry about the whole rain rushing walking here and there just for my costume.haha oh yes stupid made me feel so bright,shining away okay lol.but still thanks lub xxxx

alright so i am done with my picture spam till i get more from bimbo and xinyi,hopefully soon.

its raining,dad's pissing again,AAR is ringing in my head till now ahh darn.

mum's back,i feel like cutting my hair/fringe and i wanna pull her to haji one day i want my sandals,tee and dye hehe ^^

so i guess its byebyebye for now.